MY LAST DAY OF 2010

...just had a date with my good old friends.. such reunion is a wonderful  thing.

But I feel sick now, bad, I have a flight to catch tomorrow... errr..back to manila.. wish me safe trip!

tired!

WISHLIST 2011

1. Good health for my family

2. Full grown personality and confidence

3. Salary increase... hehe

4. Job opportunity abroad

5. Soulmate???! nyahaha

Ive got only five major wishes, baka pag dinamihan ko dipa matupad. hehehe

I'll update this 1 year after....;)

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION

keyboard of our PC here at home is a little misbehaving and it contributes to my mood in realizing my whatevers here in my multiply site. So, il just make the list of my resolution  this year brief and straight to the point.

1. Improve my verbal communication skills,

2. More confidence

3. Minimize being "kuripot"

4. See the brighter side of the world

5. Get matured

6. Mingle

7. Get stronger and courageous/ take risks

8. Strengthen spiritual life

9. More patient

10.Must not care and get affected with what mean people say

LAST DAY OF 2010

So I guess I need to make the best out of it not only because tomorrow is another year to face but also leaving the house again. Back to work again!

So this familiar feeling embracing me again, a bit of sadness. you know how I hate being far away from home.

But I need to do this!

I'll pray for my wishlist be granted.

Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011

2 days left and farewell 2010, it’s a wonderful year for me indeed. A not so wasted one. So much happenings and it made me progressive somehow. It was the year I had my venture in Manila, been part of two different companies.

 

I realized how I tried my best not to tolerate my idleness, my being introvert (I admit). I can still remember the very moment our plane landed at NAIA airport last January and I was alone that time, as I waited for my luggage, I was kinda confused and a little despaired like I was lost, and asked my self “what am I doing here?” as if I don’t know why I was stepping on Terminal 2. It’s not so sudden but not well planned as well. Mind you, working in Manila was never an option to me before but poof! I found my self working there!

 

Well anyway, for that case, no room for regrets, though leaving home always breaks my heart.. I am now glad that I had this experience...It's making me independent and molding my confidence little by little. Now I won’t blame myself someday for not trying anything… I’ll expect less “what ifs” someday right?…

 

Now I look forward for another fruitful year ahead. I hope and pray that my wishlists will be granted and of course I'll do my part.. Happy new year everyone!

KABADUYAN 101 part II

Still remember BIDAM of Queen Seon Deok? The one I was so deadly hooked to.. haha... just watched the short videos I posted here (those I got from YouTube) and it made my eyes teary again for the countless times na, obviously I'm still captivated and not moving on.. hehe..

So, I'm still inlove with the character of Bidam, he made me realized what I am missing for being loveless.. whew.. I thought I dont really care if my stupid knight in shining armor wont come. I hate you Bidam coz you are still disturbing my seems to be anesthetized emotion (towards love ew)..

 

BACK HOME

It’s been a year since I’ve been away from home, it’s actually the longest time.And now I'm back for a short vacation. It’s always a typical feeling of wondering what’s been changed in times like that.

 

So what’s new?

 

Nothing so major, just these:

 

The first level of our house were divided in two for my brother who just recently got married, he occupied the two bedrooms, the extended living room, laundry and the other restroom.

 

The two new huge jars added to my mom’s collection.

 

The ever messed up library/computer room got new furniture; actually it’s not new, our eldest brother had it transferred there after their separation with his wife.

 

Our favorite tambayan room, my parents’, no longer cool since the air-conditioned had resigned.

 

No more variety tv shows, so bad, cable line in our area got disconnected..

 

Plants outside are taller.

 

My room with my sister is rearranged.

 

Good thing internet connection in our home had stepped up the speed.

 

Our old and ruined ceiling is finally replaced with something new after 20 years.

Just an evidence of my 13th month

ERRRR...

Such a tiring day.. I feel so sleepy, hindi pa ako nakakarecover  sa puyat kagabi after our some sort of a party party…(graduation ng aming project management seminar)… add to that is our practice for our presentation in our year end party..

At ang nakakastress sa lahat, I’m expecting for my favorite dish—crabs!! That is supposed to be brought by my brother way from home.. Unfortunately, naiwan lang naman sya ng eroplano, he arrived at airport so late!!!! Errr….

Just received a text from my mom, that they are currently eating the crabs that is supposed to be mine.. tsk!

WORST DANCER

I don’t dance in public! I never dance on face of the crowd! I don’t know how to do it.. My body is so stiff I couldn’t make graceful moves. O well, maybe I exaggerate it too much by saying I never dance, of course I did, in highschool and college days, that’s because I had no choice, it’s part of our graded activities… and I also dance alone, that’s when I am happy or just extremely bored or in front of my sister just to make a joke.. and, my moves are unintentionally a joke already.. haha

 

This time, I’ll be forced to dance again, I don’t want to participate but everybody does or you’ll be cursed by some. It’s for our year end party/ Christmas party where in we will compete with the different projects of our company. We are sort of being pressured since we are the defending champion, yeah they made it on top last year.

But then, I am trying not to tolerate myself from being anti social. I have so much of it. So maybe, participating in this presentation might develop my personality.. You know how I desperately wanna be confident. So, I’m doing this! No matter how bloody bad I dance.. Enough of those old days that I run away from extra co curricular activities.. lol, not to late rght??

 

11/25/2010 Day1 Practice

 

I can feel my face blushing for being the worst dancer today. Everybody seems to laugh at me and I am being especially mentioned for my wrong and inappropriate moves.. that sucks, not to mention that my officemates are not that good as well, say, I’m the worst from the worst!! Hahaah.. I feel like running away. But I wont, am not giving up… I’m gonna do it good!

 

 11/26/ Day 2

It went good, but my body aches now, really!

 

12/17/2010

Day “2 days before the final day”

I was kinda busy of sorts I was  not able to update this. Well, anyway, tomorrow will be the final practice.. And guess what, I’m doing good, I mean, I am now aware of all those steps, practice lang pala ang kelangan, hehehe.. but don’t get me wrong, hindi pa rin ako expert sumayaw, I just knew how.. yeah at least.

THE PRACTICE

Dec. 30, 2010

I forgot to update this but we ranked third on the finals.

THE FINALE

now, I realized. I'm not that "worst dancer" that I used to think.. hahaaha

MISS MY MULTIPLY SITE, MY DIARY

i wish I could write more... but words seem to run away from me, and time wont give me some of it.. yan tuloy, thoughts remained unwritten..

Manila Tripping

It’s been almost a year now but I had never been to different parts of manila for leisure or something like that. I went out because  of my job, I been to anywhere here because I had job interviews. Oh, exempt the Malls, syempre napuntahan ko naman mga malls dito, because I need to avail something. Not until when my mom and my sister visited me and my brother. My mom stayed here for a week and my sister is still with us till now.

 

So where did we go?? We had a three day bonding moment since I had my job on weekdays, so glad that November 1 was holiday… (We had syempre bonding in our boarding house after my work, I mean the outdoor bonding).

 

Saturday. After my job, I rushed to SM Mall of Asia, my mom, my sister and my aunt is waiting for me there. Then, when I get there, we had shopping, window shopping, sight seeing, picture taking and watched Lee’s presentation at their lobby jammed with crowd. We were using my brother’s cellphone that time in taking pictures since it has a clear resolution than our digital cam (which was on repair that time)… anyway, somebody took the phone on my bag. I wish I could text the snatcher to send me our pictures through my e-mail.. hahaha…

 

Sunday.  Trick or treat??? Last day of October. We headed to SM North Edsa, we claimed my mom’s digital camera after it was fixed… that is, if it’s really fixed. That’s the second time we had it repaired. After I accidentally hulog it  last January, ako pala may kasalanan non, hahaha. I guess once a camera been damaged, it can never regain its original condition. See, how bad the lens?? See the effect..

Then we went to Quiapo, where bilihin are cheap.

Then we waited for my brother at Harrizon Plaza for our Star City experience.

 

Star City.

Monday. November 1. While most of the people visits their loved ones who passed away, we went out not to do the same but make pasyal lang.

I know it’s laos na, but just to put an end to my imagination when I was a child as to what does manila zoo looked like we visited manila zoo.

After the sight of these animals, we headed to our main target, Manila Ocean Park. Before we finally reached the place, hindi kami nakaligtas sa Rizal Park (Luneta Park). I was also wondering how it looked like though I never dream of getting there after hearing it to be lover’s rendezvous whose publicly displaying their affection (PDA) such an annoying scene to me.. hahaha.. buti na lang November 1..

Ocean Park…

That was indeed a very great day, and xempre nakakagutom, so we had our dinner at SM Manila… That’s all, the following day, back to work and my mom’s flight back home schedule.. I miss my mom already… my family…

A GOOD DAY TURNS BAD

Today is an example of a supposed-to-be good day but went bad. 

We are having a good time with my sister, my mom and my aunt at SM Mall of Asia, took some pictures using my brother’s cp since it has higher mega pixel than mine.. yung pinaayos kasi naming digital cam, di pa ayos.. After some strolls there and there… shopping, window shopping, watched the Lee’s fashion show kuno, nakipagsiksikan  and so on…. I realized that the phone is no longer on my bag, I’m sure somebody stole it…. And I know I can be blamed, I was so careless… From the very start, I am aware of the possibility of losing it since I put it on the unzipped part of my bag, wala nga pala talagang zipper yun, and snatching it would be so easy.

It’s been ten years since I handled different cellphone units, ngayon lang ako nawalan… lesson learned: wag magpabaya!.. and maybe hanggang dun na lang talaga ang buhay ng cellphone na  yun.. MAKARMA SANA YUNG NAGNAKAW!! ;)

10/24/2010

I guess I had a productive day today that boredom didn’t hit me a bit. Why productive? Because I cleaned our room, rearranged it to maximize the space, my mom and my sister is coming for a short visit.

I washed my company uniform—I don’t include it to what we bring in a Laundry shop, so paranoid that they might lose it, can’t afford being baffled of requesting for another set.

And yes a lot of cleaning….  and gone to market…. And do some cooking.. yes!

Just finished three movies.. First, Nightmare at Elm’s street , I don’t know which part was it, I have seen so much of Freddy Krueger . I’m still a fan of this some sort of horror movies that are not healthy to the mind.. Maybe the reason why I’m having some weird imaginations sometimes.

Sorority Wars.. it was fine.

Then, still fresh, Eclipse, am I the last person who watched it? Never mind… I realized that I am little irritated to Bella.. hahaha.. I don’t know. Hey, what's the title of that song played at the ending part? anyone? coz I like it.

Then aside from this trying to be masipag today, and the movies.. Obviously, this blog and the one earlier (is this a blog anyway?, no, it’s just an entry to my diary.. whatever).

It’s 10:20pm already.. what else can I do? Tomorrow is holiday. I guess I’ll have good night tonight….

Good night!         

 

I wanna go back!

I think I left some part of me in PALAWAN. It’s been three weeks since I got back here in Manila after that very short vacation in that beautiful city, Puerto Princesa Palawan but I still can see that beautiful scenery, I can still smell the fresh air, and I was captivated. .. And now I am being chased by the thought of going back there.  I been to few different places, and I don’t need to see more, just to convince myself that I would love living there... I don’t know, I have a feeling that I belong there.

I saw the simplicity of their town, a

combination of pure nature and modernization.. There maybe no towering structures, no remarkable skyscrapers , no high class man made establishments … all natural,  and that’s  truly breath taking … but not totally a rural as well, of course civilization is there…. So I guess that’s the reason why, the place is called as “city in the forest”.

And what’s making me miss the place more is knowing that there are still more spots there that I must go. Oh, if I will become a billionaire, I would buy my own island there. I would build my dream house overlooking the clear blue sea.  I wish.

I WISH TO LIVE HERE

for soulmate

Hi soulmate

Where are you? How are doing out there? I’m not crazy maybe just pathetic.

Actually the truth is, I have this feeling that your existence will only remain unrevealed in my imagination.. Maybe you don’t really exist, just let me dream you are coming.

Or maybe, I can’t have you because I don’t deserve you. Maybe I am not capable of loving anyone, or maybe I do, but I just can’t fight for it.. or stand the consequences of having and losing. I guess, it’s better out this way, just dream of you.

Maybe the following thoughts will never ever come to reality. Walk with you in an island, talk any stuff while waiting for the sunset to come. …… etc.

Or should I stop hurting myself for hoping..

I have much to say but I just can’t…

An escape to PALAWAN

Back to the place I had escaped from, Manila and my job. 3 days in Palawan is too short that it dishearten me leaving the place, there are still more beautiful places to visit, a must see scenery.

Anyway, this is just a sort of memoirs to look back, my adventure at the “City in the forest.”, one of the best and nicest places I ever been to....

Sunday. 5 minutes before 6pm when our plane had its take off at Ninoy Aquino International Airport. It’s already dark when we reached the vicinity of Palawan, I can see few lights from above. And 7pm when our plane landed to Puerto Princesa Airport. As I waited for my friend to fetch me, I observed the simplicity and peacefulness of the surrounding..

I waited for about 30 more minutes before my friend arrived (I forgave her  for keeping me waiting, lol). We had our dinner  in one of the resto there, and had headed to their Baywalk , full of colorful lights and also full of people, that’s why I didn’t take a photo of it the first time I got there.

The following day, we decided to go for an island hopping. We rented a boat at Honda bay, and the next thing, we are exploring the clear blue sea. We passed by into different beautiful islands and enchanting mountains... They are remarkably wonderful.

The calmest sea I've ever seen..I was just thinking of the idea of bringing a bottle with a message in it and throw it there would probably reach no one…. Storm might help.

We chose to stop at what they called Snake Island, and yes! It looked like snake. We aimlessly walked into the white sand, swim and feed the fishes! Due to the clearness of the water you can see the fishes swimming around you. I had this cute experience with a “territorial fish” cordoning a big stone, their house maybe, it will run after you every time you’ll get near their territory. Actually I was bitten many times by it, don’t worry their bites don’t really hurt.

Following day... Under Ground River is  our next destination, but before we reach the place, our van stopped at this spot, and we took some pictures.. Looking at this view made me wish to build my own house at this place… The scenery seemed to ease all your stresses. Time is up, we must keep going.

On our way to underground River

The Underground River . The formation of rocks are amazing....

Crocodile Farm

Baker’s Hill

..and of course it would be unfair to Baker's Hill if we only take pictures and not buy their products... So, I got this..

Baywalk and Souvenirs

Resto bar after Baywalk. Last night anyway at Palawan..

Puerto Princesa’ Airport, Wednesday, my last day.. Oh, I hate to leave….

Seeing the evidence of Palawan’s enchanting beauty didn’t end there. Just after our plane departed from Puerto Princesa’s Airport, view from above is so breath taking...and I found myself  just saying WOW, again and again...Yep, I still managed to look down though I was feeling dizzy doing it.. I just can’t take my eyes off at those islets. Then the memories of my childhood days flashing back, I used to observe the clouds and distinguish objects and animals being formed by those thick billows. But this time, it’s not the cloud, but the islands I am seeing from up there, (oh, I’m in the clouds anyway).

That’s all… I must go back… I wish I can go back…

 

SEE YOU PALAWAN

...flight to Palawan later this afternoon.. whoah, wish me safe trip.. hahaha...not to mention my fear of the plane, haha... at sana hindi ako traydorin ni Undin, or else magiging palaboy ako dun.. haha..

At kung may babalikan pa akong trabaho??? later ko na iisipin..

SAFE TRIP TO ME

On my way to PALAWAN tomorrow, and as always it tense me ride the plane. Call me paranoid, but something not good might happen on the way… that’s not impossible right?

Anyway, in case, I just want somebody to inform my family especially my parents that I love them so much…

ANG MABAIT NA PUSA

9pm 9/23/2010

 

There again I saw this cat beside this perimeter fence of MANILA PENINSULA as if waiting for someone to fetch her ( I just assumed it’s a she). Actually I’ve seeing this cat on the same place for about thrice already na, that’s about 7 am when I’m on my way to my workplace.  I first saw it as if

wheedling a woman standing in the spot one day ,akala ko nga she owned that cat. But I saw it again another day on the same place na  parang naghihintay ng kung sino. And just today, I saw it again.

 As I crossed the street on her location, she ran towards me, nagpaikot ikot at naglalambing, as if charming me to take her, for a brief moment hinayaan ko lang sya.

And I managed to secretly take a photo of her using my phone… then I realized, few more minutes na lang then I’ll be late for my work, so I left her--- and tried to follow me …

Yun lang, I know I’ll be seeing that sweet cat again.

 

 

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7:28pm 9/24/2010

 

..The next day....

I told you, I’ll be seeing her again…