Wake Me up When September Ends??

This day isn't for me... its tiring and annoying too... Had some sort of reconciliation with our cost consultant and owner's representative regarding our change orders almost the whole day... yung tipong binabalikan namin yung around 400 change orders/ additional works namin from the start of the project, eh tapos na nga yun e... I can't even remember some of it, yung iba kase ginawa lang ng mga naging QS ko... so, we have to review and make halungkat of the old files...

Tapos ang hirap pang sumakay pauwi ah, ang sakit ng paa ko sa kalalakad ah!

Tapos may nakakainis pa! Naku, bat may mga ganong klaseng tao?? Masaya ba talagang makasakit ng damdamin?? Chos! Haha... eh kase naman e.. eerr... why can't one thinks first before doing an action and or saying something, bahala sila! I don't wanna be like them anyway, sana talaga, di ako maging katulad nila... God bless them...

But if in case, unknowing or unintentionally I'm being mean too, e d sige.. tatanggapin ko, maybe I deserved to be treated the same way.

Ayan okay na ako... ako pa ba? hehe.. minsan kelangan ko lang talagang iexpress yung mga bagay bagay, para gumaan yung loob ko... minsan, di mo naman pwedeng sabihin sa taong involved, hindi sa lahat ng oras ay applicabale yung, "say what you feel!" Pag ganon yung case, sigaw mo na lang sa hangin, or para wala kang maistorbo, sulat mo na lang... its my way of comforting myself... I may sound crazy, but I'm not.. mukha lang.. hehe.. ganon naman talaga dapat diba? We must know how to take care of ourselves... friends are great, pero minsan dapat marunong din tayo solohin ang lahat.. di lahat ng oras anjan sila.. di lahat ng oras maipagkakatiwala mo sa iba yung kung ano man pinagdaraanan mo.. chos.. o.a ko naman.. hehe...  (lalo na kung wala ka naman masyadong friends kase yung ugali mo, ikaw mismo dimo maintindihan.. haha).... kelangan maging independent tayo.....

So for today, this one's for me..

Good night! Sleep well..

p.s. oo, walang connection yung title.. hehe

The Impulsive Buyers

It's not really that impulsive..  I was thinking of buying new stuffs naman talaga but not exactly today.. magdidinner lang sana kami at sya pupunta nanaman sa globe... Then I was just kinda kidding in telling her na I want to buy this and that... and then, the next thing is, tadaann! We shopped.. haha.. ayos lang,  we need to pamper ourselves minsan..

28th of September

6:55am

Good Morning! Ang aga ko today.. oo, Maaga na saken to... hehe.. The weather was gloomy kase kanina, ayokong abutin ng ulan.. Look ang lungkot na dito sa office.. walang tao... and yes, our office is messy..

This is my new seat... where I took this shot, and its kinda awkward in here because this is formerly our Project Manager and Area Manager's office.. haha.. they are here once in a while na lang... at para silang squatter pag andito kase wala na silang table.. ginusto nila yun eh.. gusto daw kase nila na ipakita na naglalayasan na kaming lahat ngayon.. hayst!.. As for me, gusto ko pa rin dun sa dating table ko where I can see the window at alam ko anong nangyayari or anong weather sa labas... sige, gotta get my self busy na... Lets seize this day! Carpe Diem!

12:15pm
Watching aldub again.. haha.. sorry naman..  U'm really having fun watching it

 Haynaku Alden! You're such! Ulit ulit nako.. ahahah..  you're making me act as if I'm 10 years younger.. when he cried singing that song, ramdam ko sya.. di totoo yung big boys don't cry.. or nakakaturn off yung ganon.. maybe he was just feeling grateful..  diba nga raw yung kasabihan na "Good things happen to good people".. eh para sa kanya, because he deserves it.. parang kilala ko sya personally noh?? Haha.. nasa aura at gestures lang kase nya... kung acting lang yun, eh di wow.. hehe...

4:15pm
Eating rice! Gutom e.. actually, I just had noodles before this.. good sign, minsan kase diko nafefeel gutom.. kapag ganon, pressured ako non, or depress depressan.. hehe.. ibig sabihin, chill lang ako today.

11:03 pm
So generally, hows your day? Mine? Surprisingly,  I didn't feel my Monday morning sickness..  Amazing, minsan lang mangyari yun... Busy day rin naman today, pero medyo may chance pumetiks... kapag masyado akong dumadaldal sa chat box...like this

 alams na! Hehe.. baka sa mga susunod na araw... zombie mode naman.. haha

GOOD NIGHT NA!! SLEEP.WELL!

27th of Sept

11:49am
When you're at someone else house at walang magawa.. this is some kinda of a scrap book I gave to teh (margaux) on her birthday... so I wrote something.

6:30pm
And it's also nice to be  at someone else's home, makikikain, makikimovie marathon... hehe

8:55pm
Home.. took the bus.. and ayaw ko pa sanang bumaba.. kaso kelangan na... if only Metro Manila is a safe place to roam around anytime I want, then I would love to tambay at the bus and just go anywhere I'm not familiar to... this saying today...

10:19pm

It's late but I don't wanna sleep yet..  I'm enjoying music tripping while it's raining.. writing too... yey! I'm half way there.. hehe.. and a selfie too.. napapadalas nanaman yung selfie ko.. kumikidlat pa naman.. baka tamaan pa ako... patawarin.. Haha

11:12

Today's quote I just heard from anywhere..

"Good things happen to good people"... good naman ako diba? Hehe

"Enjoy happiness, but not too overwhelmed by it to the extent you'll gonna hurt other people"..  -- minsan kase pag sobra tayong masaya.. nakakalimot tayo.. or the other way around.. pag masyado tayong malungkot.. nakakalimutan natin yung mga bagay na dapat nagpapasaya satin.. minsan nadadamamay pa natin yung ibang tao.. walang damay damay ui.. haha! Chosera! Dami kong arte.. Hehe

Hayst..late na talaga.. I need to sleep na. GOOD NIGHT NA.. SLEEP WELL...

Aldub u! haha

1:59pm

Buti na lang wala kaming pasok ngayon! I get to see the Aldub.. hahaha...

At kelangan may karamay pa.. haha... just nice to share that we are happy watching. Haha

During commercial break... dahil nababagot ako.. Diko maiwasang magselfie at magpabebe... sensya na.. haha!

Yuck ba?? Hahaha.. nakakairita lang, nagpabebe wave pa.. nahihiya rin ako sa sarili ko mismo pero wala akong pakialam.. haha.. tayo lang naman nakakaalam ng kaartehang to. Wahaha

3:05pm

Tapos na.. haha.. ang dami kong tawa... natawa ako sa 1 foot distance... natuwa ako sa mga lolas... natawa ako kay rhianna mayordoma... tsaka just wondering what's  the content of Maine's letter to alden...  ang baduy ko rin, nakikiuso lang... nagpapakacorny rin but This made my day.

..  Salamat sa Eat Bulaga.. :)

10:52pm

Here at Margaux and Lorain's place.... as usual nakikain at makikitulog... haha.. Mela was here too a while ago.. and at this very moment.. I'm watching back alden's singing God Gave Me You.. I'm sooo touched kase.. di ako makamove on.. haha... Aldub you na talaga! Haha

25th of September

Today: Stressed. Haggard. Meet up with the kulit boy jaden. SM MOA. Fireworks.

23rd of September

12:28
Stressed ako! I can't even feel that we are less that ten staff left in the office... because I've been doing something at every minute of my time..  busy mode nanaman ako!! Magmumukha nanaman akong zombie nito! Haha... mahirap nga talaga pag nag coclose out na..  and I don't have my assistant anymore.. naiinis ako!!

Lunch break... that somehow turns everything into a light mode... at least at some point of the day, I could smile and laugh. Stress reliever ko to.. hehe

Anyway, I'll just have to calm my senses.. nagiging irritable at masungit ako.. I must not! I'll try not to stress myself too much... I'll just do what I can do.. pag di kaya.. pag hindi enough ang time... I wont make it hard for myself, basta kaya ko to... work lang to... :)

6:00pm

Still at the office??!! Had a reconciliation and made the presentation for cost report tomorrow.. but I'm about to leave now..

8:35pm
 I just got home.. I had my dinner at Bonchon Ayala triangle... And when I told you a while ago that I 'll leave the office before 6, I lied... I was ready to go when Jonna, Cloivette and I enjoyed talking about scary stories (enjoyed?? Haha)... oo, ang tingin ko ang daldal ko kanina.. haha...  we were sharing our panghorror experiences... I think I left the office quarter to seven dahil lang dun... and I hope I could sleep well later....

11:00pm

Good night. Sleep well. :)

21st of September

8:10am
Marami akong dapat gawin pero diko alam anong uunahin!! Wahhh!! Haha...

8:14pm
Cake?? Want some?... Dahil pagod ako, I deserve it.

10:54pm
At some point of this day, I feel irritated...  and I'm even annoyed with myself too kase diko mapigilang mairita..... di naman dapat.....  binili ko na nga ng cake yung sarili ko e.... nababaliw nanaman ako.. haha.. erase this! (Syempre diko buburahin)...

I must clear my mind now , my heart and even my soul... and sleep well.. Good night!

"Dear God, help me let go of what's bothering me, calm my senses.."

20Sept15

10:10am.. my kind of breakfast... both healthy and mostly unhealthy.. 

 10:37pm

I don't know why I've been feeling irritated today, sinusumpong nanaman ata ako.. hahaha.. it was 3 pm when I felt that I need to fill my tummy with real food, I mean some carbo.. so I went out... eat different foods from here and there... ang takaw ko naman.. haha... pero after all that,  feeling uneasy pa rin ako.. when I headed home, the rain was pouring heavily.. okay lang naman sana.. but it was flooding at the area before reaching my place... errr. Disgusting but I have to make lusong sa baha... I found another reason why I hate this place...

Okay.. move on na.. wag na maarte.. pang maganda lang yun. Haha.. Good night!

19th of September

As usual, I didn't wanna  go home right after work.. So I watched a movie.. I was caught between these movies:  Maze Runner(maybe its nice), Me Earl and The Dying Girl (got curious with the title) , Heneral Luna ( the kind of movie I'll watch only if my history subject requires us but  because it earns positive feedback, I'm intrigued too), but I ended up with Everest.. and I got a good pick... It's a beautiful movie, swear! It's too heart moving, add to that, its based on true story..

This movie says that reaching one of your dreams like being on the summit of the tallest mountain in the world would take life and death, because some of them died for it..  just like what one of the cast said, why are they doing that to themselves?? The agony they have to embrace from going up and going down was worth dying for (for them)... it's indeed an accomplishment...

Have you ever tried mountain climbing? Well, for me, never tried it.. I think I'm so physically unable to do it (medyo lampa kase ako.. haha) and I'm kinda easy to feel exhausted (lack of exercise I guess)... During my 1st year college, my close friends and I were invited to climb (by our university mountaineering club), no second thoughts my friends said yes, while I said I can't..  (yah, I'm such a loser) haha... they had prepared for it, they boost their endurance by joining into various activities to condition themselves , they need to... and I think I'm too impatient for that... I've seen pictures of how the world looks like from the peak of a mountain, its breath taking, is there a short cut up there? Hehe..

Anyway..I think I have to sleep now.. Good night!

Walang Sense ang Post na To Wag na nating Basahin.. haha

It's like I've got to say something but I ended up with I don't know what to say... haha.. ano ba yan.. I'm running out of words, I'm running out of thoughts.. I'm so uninspired.. chos!.. matutulog na lang ay bumabad vibes pa ako. Sabi ko kase kanina, I'm gonna write something.. bakit ngayon wala na...

Back to being busy kase ako at work, my QS is on leave and when she gets back.. lilipat na rin sya.. so I think I'm going to be really busy.. I'll be preparing for our close out report tapos sumasabay pa yung bagong system namin.. nakakastress yun.. buti na lang medyo gamay ko na..ilang araw din akong pabalik balik ng head office namin, alam mo namang ayoko don... ala lang choice... chosera!

Haha.. usapang work??? Nakakainis ako ah.. tulog na!!!

Good night.. sorry kung alang sense pinagsasabi ko today..

Too Tired To Tell

Today, i'm just too tired.. as in really tired... my legs hurt... and i think i look horrible too... i'm too tired i missed to do what I'm supposed to do.
. I'm too tired i just want to sleep for 24 hours straight if possible.. I'm too tired and I feel hungry now I forgot to eat well ...

But though I'm feeling tired, I wasn't unhappy... I feel I had accomplished something... but I'm too tired to tell why... or I'm too tired to know why... But I'm not stop breathing.. I'm just tired.. o, why would I stop breathing? I'm just drop dead tired!

And though I'm feeling tired, I caught a smile in my face somehow.. yes, I'm too tired to tell why or to tell who... but whoever you are, thanks! Just like "that".. you made me smile..

And i'm tired really. Good night!.. I just need to sleep..

My Sympathy to the Victims of the Crane Crash in KSA

I was so worried sick when I read on my  fb news feed the  crane crash/ accident happened at Makkah (Mecca) last friday. My mom is in Saudi Arabia to perform the pilgrimage too, thank God she was okay. They were still at Madina when it happened.

That incident was saddening, condolence to more than hundred families who lost their loved ones.. Lets just pray for the souls of those who passed away... Despite that, it may be tragic, but it was also indeed a blessing to the victims who have their last breath worshipping God on the Holy day of Friday at the Holy Land.. May they rest in peace, May God grants them eternal Life at Jannah (Heaven)...

And for those who live and performing the Hajj, May God keep them safe, including my Mom.

11th of September

12.10pm

11th of September, isn't this the exact day The Twin Towers of the World Trade Center bombing?

Anyway, it has nothing to do with my post today, just coincidence. What about my post today? wala lang, kaechosan lang as always.

I opened my FB thru my PC and this is what welcomed me

So this post is exactly 4 years ago! anong problema ko jan? haha.. iksi nung hair ko... my boss referred that as "tsunami hair".. haha..

12:59 pm

Different pictures and videos about Syria like the hardships being encountered by this fleeing Syrian from their country is so heartbreaking... How would it feel to be in their shoes? terrifying! Lets just pray for them..  Back to work now.

8:48pm
At my father's hotel room... glad where he checked in is just walking distance from my workplace.. he's here for a meeting kanina.. and he'll  be going home tomorrow... anyway, I have to go home na rin.. tama na ang selfie! Haha.. Look, we we're wearing our commemorative  shirts daw.

9:33pm
Home.. I haven't seen my friends for this entire week.. parang namimiss ko sila.. nawawalan na ako ng social life.. chos! Parang meron. Haha

11:01pm
GOOD NIGHT!

9th of September

5:04am
I woke up around 4:30 am, an hour earlier than my normal wake up call... it's like I'm having my Monday Morning Sickness but it's Wednesday.. I feel not so well.. I don't wanna go to work, it feels so sad there already....

9:06pm
I'm feeling really exhausted! As in mentally, socially, physically and emotionally tired! I think I looked so haggard right now, I don't even want to see my face in the mirror... :(

10:50pm
Despite my dramas, I'm okay...
I miss my mom, are they in KSA by now?.. I hope they had a good flight...

Good night!

8th of September

Pretending as if I'm sick so I can avail my sick leave is something that bothers  me because I don't want to make false excuses... naguiguilty ako, feeling ko totoong magkakasakit ako kapag nagsisinungaling ako.. makakarma ako... yeah, I am that paranoid unless if I'm truly sick, aabsent talaga ako..... kaso wala na akong VL, isa na lang... so I used my SL, I pretended as if I was sick makaabsent lang... (actually hindi naman eto yung first time na kunwari may sakit ako makaabsent lang, may reason naman ako kaso naguguilty lang ako.. kahit surely everyone is doing it..). Hindi naman ako dakila, ang point ko lang is ayokong dinadahilang may sakit ako kahit wala naman.. bat ako nag eexplain? Bat ang arte ko? Haha.. sorry naman. May masabi lang .. para di na ako maguilty.

Anyway mabigat naman yung reason ko bat absent ako today, more important than my job.. I can afford to lose my job but I can't let my mom leave without seeing her.. I just had a bonding moment with her.. She's here and tomorrow they will be off to Saudi Arabia for a pilgrimage..   It's her second time to be in KSA for a pilgrimage. I was at my fifth grade when she first went there,.. She was gone for about more than a month.. That was also the first time that we've separated from her for that long.. feeling ko ang tagal tagal nyang mawawala non,  Naalala ko pa after we send her off to the airport, pagdating ng bahay, bait baitan ako, naglilinis ng bahay.. diko alam anong pinaglalaban ko non.. Haha.. siguro inuuto lang kami ng tatay ko na magpakabait kase nasa malayo yung nanay namin.. haha! and we missed her everyday, wala pang cellphone non!.. we didn't have any idea what's going on to her out there..

Anyway, I wish I could join her, in my own time, I'll be performing my pilgrimage too, it's part of our religious obligations...

I hope they will have a safe journey.. God Bless her.. God bless us all. Good night!

My Emotional 5th of September

There's no denying, kahit pa inuuto lang tayo ng "Aldub" eh affected much nanaman ako...haha! nagkita na kase sila finally!! 😍

Tsaka infairness kay Lola Nidora, may sense naman yung mga pinagsasabi nya..

Anyway, I was scrolling my Instagram account when I saw this posted by someone..

It's just so timing that we've watched Inside Out  kanina, and this character Bing Bong just made me shed a drop of tear before he disappeared saying that line.. -"take her to the moon for me"..  kaloka, cartoons, pinaiyak ako? Haha!.. 

Sige, medyo late na pala. GOOD NIGHT!

40 Quotable Quotes

I was scanning my gallery trying to delete some unwanted items when I realized I have too many saved pictures and quotes on it. If a random post catch my interest, I would right away save or screen shot them on my phone... kaya eto, popost ko lang.

Wala lang, gusto ko lang ishare...

1. okay. noted.

2. Noted too.. we can control what we think but never what we feel.

3. Kinda pressured on this because I'm kinda indecisive since I was born. Haha

4. I didn't write this but whoever wrote this, I feel her/him because I think I have a slight of this too.. so friends, bare with me sometimes. Haha!..  (but not so serious, in case you feel weird about me now)

5. Agree! And I salute that  kind of people.. especially karamihan ngayon eh insensitive na. Chos lang!

6. I didn't say I'm posting only inspiring quotes... when I say random, everything that makes sense or even don't make sense counted.. I just had a good laugh when I saw this picture... watched also the short film of it a while ago.

7. I'm sorry, sometimes I'm  just the saddest but I just can't give my best try to make others happy-- and that what makes me even more saddest.. (oo, more na! saddEST pa)

8. I should post this on my wall so I will be reminded everyday.

9. I just wished I made someone's day just a little better... (meron kaya?, sa salbahe kong to?? I wish I had)

10. Ayan ah! alams na! :)

11. True!

12. Chosera!. e di wow... haha.. wala lang.

13. For the next pictures, these are screen shots, I'm too lazy to crop..pasensya, tamad lang. Anyway, so we meet people by reason huh?? Siguro, for the case of others, baka sa ngayon di pa natin alam bakit.. baka bukas pa...

14. o ha!.. kitam, there's no problem in being single... tsk tsk tsk.. ang hirap kase ipaintindi ito sa mga nag aakalang hindi okay.... (nahahawa tuloy ako. Haha)

15. So, its okay.

 

16. I wish I could!

17. I wish too!

18. Right.

19. At first, I didn't get this. Pero nung nagets ko na.. sinubukan kong magpause ng 2pm while I'm busy working and see what happens... haha.. (nagpauto sa quote)

20. okay.. eto siguro yung time heals daw.. lumilipas din ang lahat... sana nga. Haha!

21. Gosh, I have sooooo much of words!

22. Am I not getting old because I'm still using my old email? and it's humiliating because there's the word "kaede" on it.. as in Kaede Rukawa of Slam Dunk, I created that sometime in 2004 and I'm still using it till now.. I already have a corporate email from our company and another email in yahoo with my full name on it.. pero mas active pa rin ako dun sa may "kaede".. haha!

23. See? so, whats wrong with me? (sometimes).

24. hahaha! relate! (tatanga tanga rin kase ako minsan).

25. Yeah.. tapos iisipin mo pa, sana panaginip na lang!

26. So I'm telling myself million times not to overthink... maybe I need to add another million.

27. No words needed to understand this picture.. it's heartbreaking... 

28. Okay. Sabi mo e.

29. So that's how you miss people? 

30. I hope I'm not one of those people.. kaso. feeling ko minsan, kasama ako.. hindi maari!

31. Denial? medyo slow kase yung heart. haha

32. so, habang may buhay may pag asa?

33. Ganon?  Pero ayos lang, as long as I have what I NEED, ayos na ako... kontento nako.. 

34. Tama!

35. Oo, Ako to!

36. Is there an alternative aside from drinking?? (wala namang sinabi kung anong drinks?)

37. and I sing in the rain too --literally, when I walk on the streets with my umbrella on, I sing! Haha

38. No matter how afraid we are to learn the unknown, we must not assume.. kaya nagkakagulo ang mundo! kaya maraming namimisinterpret Hehe.. tsaka on the other hand, there's too many annoying people who assume for you.. yung tipong parang mas alam pa ano nararamdaman mo.. kakainis! Haha

39. Kaya nga minsan, kahit kumukulo na ang dugo mo, shut up ka lang..

40. I have nothing to say na..  haha

That's all! I know, we are aware at some of these lines, pero minsan kelangan lang kase natin marinig at mabasa pa ng paulit ulit.. chos lang!