Cooking Mode

Sometimes I regret why i didn't learn how to cook, especially in times like this.. I'm so much fed up with the choices of food i take almost everyday here.... so I tried to cook my own crab dish today, its my first time to do this... Crab is just one of my fave dish, and its so ironic that I don't know how to cook them..... so I needed to call and text my mom for her assistance, it makes me miss her so much, she's the best... hehe




sa bahay lang kasi ako nakakakain neto!! so, as I've said, aside from not knowing  how to cook it, crabs are so expensive here! hehe

So hows my first ever crab dish???? hmmmmmm... pwede na!! yes, pwede na for someone who had a very meager talent in cooking! nyahahhaha..

Five things I would want to say to five different people right now

1.       I don’t know whether I should feel overwhelmed or insulted with what you been acting.. Of course I know that you don’t intend to make me feel bad, you’re actually trying to lift my confidence up as you indirectly said so. Thank you, it’s just that at some corner of my mind, I am wondering if I am doing things so wrong that you need to push me up. You said, I’m doing great, you’re exaggerating it, that’s why I doubted it… but thank you though, I mean it!

 

2.       I was trying to make things even for us because you once outsmarted me. But at that point I had the chance to do so, my kindness overpowered me. Okay fine! Hands down…

 

3.       I’m sorry if I’m being so careless sometimes, I hope you understand that I am not perfect, that everybody commits mistakes too and I’m no exempted to that.

 

4.       Hey, I don’t want to, but I hate you I do. I’m sorry but I really really hate you right now. I wish I could slap those words to your face! You’re such a damn user, you’re an insensitive lousy fool! But despite everything you’ve done, I’m still on my way to forgiving you, even if you’re not asking for it…. But swear, I’ll never forget!

 

5.       You’ll be fine… never let anyone make you feel bad, no one has the right to do so unless you permits them.. Don’t be insecure, you are beautiful and that’s more than enough! You must not need anyone to cheer you up, you must be independent…. SMILE NOW!

lots of laugh today!

I had a good laugh today... thursday is supposed to be one my worst, but not today, coz i  found myself laughing out loud the whole day!.. i wasn't faking it, of course I'm not!

so, could it mean that when you laugh out loud, then you are happy??? maybe. maybe not.

anyway, I have so much in mind when i was on my way home a while ago.... well, that wasn't surprising, I'm really like that--- thinking whatever I can think, with sense or with not. And I thought of writing them down here but I forgot already, Kenshin Himura surfaced in my oceans of thought. hahaha... I'm not done yet watching the Samurai X series, I couldn't get enough of it, I had a copy of it so I could watch it here... and I wish he's existing... I want him!!! His philosophy about life is so great I would want him give me some lifting words of wisdom. hehe

Anyway... back to me laughing out loud today! actually it scares me sometimes that jolly moments awaits a crying time .. hahahah.. I hope not, especially that I am expecting a bad tomorrow.....

I'll keep you in touch my diary! good night anyway!

Thanks!

Thanks! you made me smile........ somehow! ^__^

How many LAST LETTER shall I make to get over it?? hahaha

"I hate you! I hate you! I hate you! I wish I won’t see you forever, if only I could erase you in my system, then I should have done that long time ago.. Now, I hate myself for being so defenseless, how could you??! I don’t deserve be hurt by you.. that’s why I won’t let you.. no more stupid songs for you, no I will never shed a tear for you, never again! I was stupid I know, but its over now! Get lost!!!"

--the mad side of me—

"Woah! That’s so mad of me.. hehe.. actually I don’t want to write those things, that’s humiliating, but I can’t help myself… I’m sorry I freaked out, I’m only releasing what’s inside me right now before it burst out to tears, but as I’ve said, no more tears for you.. and I’ll be fine, don’t worry, oh, I don’t think you give a damn to worry."

" Anyway, I’ve already screamed out my anger. And to whom that letter is concern, don’t listen to my mad self..  Maybe it wasn’t really your fault, I didn’t get rid of you after you’ve hurt me once, i just want to spend few moments with you because sooner or later we will part ways. And you know what, you’re just one of the reason why I am staying. See? I can be blame too, coz I let stupid things to happen, I let myself fall, and this is the consequence I’m facing. I was just too foolish believing somehow I mean to you when I’m really not. I thought I have guarded my heart firmly, but I was wrong. "

"But despite this , I know I’m gonna be alright. I tolerated this, so I'll be on my own fix it.. For sure I can!"

--the trying-to-be-calm side of me--

 

^__^ -- at 1st day of July

 July 1! I don’t know why I’m being baffled with this day, could it be because it’s nearing August?? And that’s my birth month…. Whatever! Maybe I should look for Peter Pan and ask him to take me to Neverlands… and I do believe in fairies… hehe

So, where was I today? Well, I spent the whole morning in my room… I had a Samurai X marathon, I just loved it! I love Kenjin Himura…

and in the afternoon, my brother and I went to Glorietta to watch the Spiderman… Honestly, I was bored with it, so many dull moments.. I still go for Tobey Maguire!

And I’ve met an old friend too, Rohannie.

This is how yours truly looked like today..

And this my brother asking me to take his picture at this very spot—Makati Ave., in front of Ayala Museum.

So, that’s it..

Good night for now!

hello July!

What???! It’s july and I’m still stuck…

Bakit ganon? Oras lang yung mabilis, hindi ang mga pangyayari…  I’m not supposed to be here right now..

Hello July anyway!