ANG CHEKE... BOW!

 Your worrywart friend is here again to do some complaining and give you some shots of qualms, actually to normal people, it shouldn’t be something to worry about, it’s just a very small stuff, but since I’m such a worrier, then I am here! Hehe

It’s a job matter. I released the million pesos worth progress billing check of two of our subcontractor today, Architect Anna (architectural Site Coordinator) knew those checks were in my hands, since she was the one who actually instructed our utility yesterday to pick up the checks in JTKC (the owner).

She asked me this morning if I received it, I said yes and I thought I heard her saying “sabihan mo sila”. I interpreted that as – I should inform the nominated subcontractors that I have their checks so they could claim it and give me in return the Official receipts and I could forward  it to JTKC… I’ve done this before.

So I informed NSC’s, and I gave them the checks! I believe that I was responsible for that. But this afternoon, I told Architect Anna that I released the checks, then she said, did you inform PM (Project Manager) that you released the checks…? ( wahhh!! Oo nga naman) I thought everything was fine, I didn’t inform PM because I wasn’t thinking that he might object, I wasn’t thinking that he might not have any idea that I have those vouchers, I was assuming that since Maam Anna knew it, then PM did too. At sabi ko nga, kala ko pinaparelease na ni maam anna mga yun dahil wala naman syang sinabing wag muna..So I replied “hindi… bakit? Dapat bang ihold ko?”, sabi nya, “wala namang problema, pero sa susunod inform mo muna si Sir baka may mga instructions pa sya”.

Yun! Okay next time. Surely I’l inform PM naman kung hindi dumaan ke mam anna mga checke.

So the problem now is how would PM react when I’ll tell him this on Monday “Sir, kinuha na ni Kalayaan (KECI) at ICPW yung mga checke nila nung Saturday”.

a.      He will just look at me like what he used to do, no words, pero parang nagsasabibing, mali yung ginawa mo!!!...

b.      Or eto sasabihin nya. “Ahhh… bat dimo sinabi sa aken?!.. tsk tsk tsk”

c.       Or baka eto, “may cheke na ba? Bat diko alam, sa susunod  sasabihin mo sa aken”

d.      Or baka ganto lang “O yung OR?! Ibalik mo na sa JTKC yan.”

e.      Pero pano kung ganto? “Ano ba nman yan! Dapat ihohold yun, may problema pa sila ”… that’s the worst.

O ano sa tingin mo? At ano isasagot ko? Siguro ganto na lang “ eh kala ko po wala ng problema, for release na yun”… kung nasa mood sya, pwede kong idagdag to.. “wala ka na rin kasi nung hapon”.. hahahaha… bahala na!

I’l update this on Monday.

update April 2, 2012 monday

anong nangyari? none of the above.. haha! basta ok na/

3/18/2012

Another boring Sunday.. and I don’t know why I always can’t wait for every Sunday to come.  Could it be because it’s time to rest and I’m at least few kilometers away from work?? Or.. I don’t know.. I’m not even doing something exciting.. hehe

I’m actually watching a horror movie a while ago , The Woman in Black, and unfortunately I wasn’t able to reach the end, my laptop misbehaved again! The disc wasn’t even working on our portable DVD player so I tried here on my old laptop but it stopped playing.

Speaking of movies, I went so tired of making my reviews. I’d love to blog about it but I just can’t… the least I can do is to give you the roll.

I’ve watched Terminator, from the latest part to oldest, that’s way back 1984 right? I had a quick glance of those movies before like in HBO maybe or somewhere else, but I was so minor then I couldn’t even understand the story. And now I was amazed as how they maintain the quality of that movie… from 1984-2009!

I’ve watched “The Last Castle “ too, nice movie.

“Mr. Popper’s Penguins”.. cute

And another love story movie “Something Borrowed”… I found fun in it, I love the story.

anyway, i've watched those movies (except for Woman In Black) in the office, ofcourse during lunch break.

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If only I was strong enough to face the real world

Then maybe I am on my peak of my dreams coming true now

If only I’ve realized what I truly wanted when I was 16

Then maybe I’m not here right now

If only I am not indecisive

Then maybe I am not stuck right now

If only the world is an easy place to be at

Then maybe I am fearless right now

If only I had tried to risk

Then maybe I am not asking myself “what if?” now

If only I am blessed with self confidence

Then maybe I am circumscribing the globe now

If only I knew the purpose of my existence

Then maybe I am not so damn confused now

If only I didn’t play safe in my life’s quest

Then maybe I’m a skilled person right now

If only I gave chance to things I ran away from

Then maybe I found what’s missing in my life

If only I had said the things I’m still hiding right now

Then maybe my heart ain’t broken still

If only I’m brave enough to fight my feelings for someone

Then maybe I’m not hopeless and waiting in vain till now

But If only I knew where I supposed to stand

Then maybe I tried fighting

And if only that someone knew it

Then maybe I’m not twisting my mind in wondering now

Finally, if only the world is faultless, then absolutely I’m not saying IF ONLY right now

…..but the world is truly PERFECTLY IMPERFECT.

OH, IF ONLY.

soooooooooooo T I R E D!

If in a very small possible way you stumble here on my webpage, specifically at this post, then I advise you to stop reading… this is rated PG, coz I’m about to do some drama…. Hehe

I don’t know why it’s so easy for me to write sad and negative things than those happy ones..

This past few days, I’ve been hearing myself pronouncing these lines : “I’m tired na”, “ayoko na”, “so exhausted”…  to what? I’m not sure if it’s just literally of my job with some mean people surround me, so toxic na! if during my earlier months i was complaining because i had less task to do where i found it so boring and dull, now i can't figure out which tasks should take place first and be prioritized... "maloloka na ako! kaya ko naman, but it will take time before I'll learn everything, add to that the people who will throw you unjust criticism and instead of helping you, they will try to put you down.

 Or could it be I’m tired of my life, sorry I thought I wasn’t that morbid anymore, (but, hey, I won’t entertain suicide here, good thing I’m afraid of pain.. hehe)..  sometimes i just felt everything going on in me is meaningless, like i had wasted so much time.

Or I’m so exhausted waiting for something--- that maybe never existed or had gone so long time ago me not knowing it.

I'm starting to get sick of this place, I'm here because i'm into my life's sense quest, but i think i'm a bit lost, i couldn't find the way, i'm not confident enough to take risk, im stuck.

I've run out of words to uplift me when I'm down, i've got no friends here to give me advices.

I hate hearing people saying that they want to find themselves.. why?! are they lost? I think they’re just denial! …and honestly I’m one of them too… so that means I hate myself too.. hahaha..

I'm not tolerating nor welcoming this random thoughts that are eating me and outsmarted me, diko lang talaga maiiwasan, pasensya na.

Anyway, what’s the value of this blog? Its meaningless too, I’m sleepy na kasi kay tatapusin ko nan g ganon ganon na lang.. hehe

Good night!

PS: writing this had at least lighten up my mood. see? effective naman kahit papano!

i've got no one but myself

I’ve mentioned this on my facebook earlier- I must get myself a good grip because I’m almost on the brink of my sanity! Yah really, im being so stressed nowadays, and if i couldn’t handle it well, surely I’ll go crazy! Haha..

I’ve realized that I have a long way to trudge in order for me to know the things I’m supposed to know, got my point? (of course no one could ever know everything in this world). I feel stupid sometimes and feel ashamed for not being aware of so many things, when I am being asked a question and I couldn’t answer, that’s hell! When I couldn’t prove what I want to prove? That’s disheartening!

But can I be blamed for the matters I didn’t know? Am I I crossing the boundary of being lenient, am I overdoing it? Or was I so careless? Or am I just being occupied of so many thoughts I wasn’t able to save spaces for the relevant things?

Anyway… I’m on the process of learning new things now, whether I’m just trying to comfort myself for saying that it’s not too late, it doesn’t matter. I’m just trying to convince myself here that I’m not the only person who’s facing these life’s deterrents and hindrances. And I’m such a hard headed person and pessimistic as ever too that I couldn’t calm myself easily, I couldn’t filter distractions, they keep on coming! I know, they will never stop on coming, it’s just how I take it…..

I’m being tortured, but that would make me tough right??! and frankly speaking, I appreciate the perks I’m getting…

And thanks to my mini “notes to myself”, I could give myself some uplifting words, I have no one to save myself but myself. hehe

So ash, chillax now! The only thing you’ll get in taking things too seriously is heart failure and a miserable life! If you keep on permitting these negative vibes come into you, you surely never gonna find happiness!  Remember, The world wouldn’t revolve at your favor!

 

  

2/19/2012

I include blogging on my checklist today, that’s why I’m obliging myself to do this though I’m not really in the mood.

Woke up 8am , dried squid for breakfast, cleaned the room, sent my dirty clothes and uniform to the laundry shop, dropped by at the nearest Save More. Cooked spaghetti—unfortunately I forgot to add cheese on that.

 Ate green mango with bagoong and soy sauce.

 Movie marathon.

And I felt emptiness a while ago.. echos! Hehe

Watching Gandang Gabi Vice now.

FLOWERS EVERYWHERE????

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!