Why am I smiling alone???

They said, when you smile alone, you really mean it!...  or it could be the other way around, you're going crazy! haha

Anyway why am smiling alone? Could it be the movie series I was watching awhile ago??, no, surely it wasn't, that was nice but a bit bloody and tragic! (bitin nga e kasi kulang yung kopya ko, i thought I wouldn't enjoy it).....

Or could it be the blog of someone I am now reading.... He's doing his post cute and sweet... (corny ng description ko! haha)

Maybe the pouring rain outside!

Or the music I'm listening to at the moment...

or maybe the "memories"....

or maybe you're right, I know what you think.... maybe because I'm  inlove! (ew that! hehe)... I'm actually broken hearted.. haha..

maybe I should sleep now.....

Good night!

Just Goodnight and Some Thoughts before I sleep.. ;)

it feels really bad when you’re feeling so mad at someone but you couldn’t yell at that person, you couldn’t do a thing instead you just let those feelings rot inside you. And why you can’t? It’s because of two reasons.

 First, you have no right to hate that person, even if he was so unkind and insensitive to you, even if he was intentionally hurting you (or not) – because he never promised you anything. Indeed, action speaks louder than words, but still words will win through, though lies are also born in the course of words.

Second, you wouldn’t tell your feelings to those concern, those who caused you pain because you don’t wanna make them feel overwhelmed and be delighted when they’ll know there presence lacerates you…. (Unless, if that someone cares about you even a bit, but I doubt that… haha)

Cut! This is supposed to be a-not-so-serious post, but I spoiled it, I was so dramatic above there… haha, that’s why I stopped myself, I know.. I know! Its not good to hate someone, and posting stuff like this is not a good idea as well, the public will mock me for sure, though I hid it to some, but customizing settings is a sort of laborious matter, so still, this I set to public because I wanted someone would read this--- there I gamble my humility.. haha.. (Nobody would read this anyway, I bet).

I said too that I would stop doing this nonsense for like a hundred times already, but still, these thoughts are like mushrooms that keep on coming no matter what..  I couldn’t stop them, so I write them down… and it works! (yeah, at least) doing this is like throwing  stones into the sea, throwing away my heartaches! (ew! Haha).

Time to shift thoughts , how bout good things now?? (gah….. I couldn’t think of any)… I want to say, My life is a mess! But I must not (though I said it already.. haha)…

Anyway, behind that bitterness, I am grateful of so many things in my life… I’m loving myself to this I’m about to say…( probably, if in case someone, somehow is reading this, for sure he/she would stop already, I’m making it too lengthy now.. hehe..)…

I’m thankful for having the best parents in the world. I just loved them so much…

I’m thankful that I have a job, for my profession and for earning my own money.

I must be thankful that I wasn’t born a beggar.

I’m thankful I’m not impaired nor crippled.

I’m thankful for my freedom.. for the choices I could make (though its only making me more confuse haha)

I’m thankful for those few people who understand me….those true good friends.

I'm thankful that no matter how my heart was broken for countless times, its still working..

I’m thankful for the things I knew… for the knowledge I’ve learned.

I’m thankful to my multiply site… for listening without complaining.

I’m thankful that I am skinny-- should I be thankful to that after wishing I could gain weight??.. yes I should, after realizing that some girls dreamed to be one, and I could EAT ALL I CAN!

I’m thankful that I’m not ugly.. (am I not or I’m just fooling my self?.. haha), my siblings told me I am ugly, I told them they are ugly too! (Though I don’t really mean it, I’m sure my brothers and my sister are not ugly, but me??? I don’t know.. haha)… anyway, I love them though they are such a headache-causing-people!

I’m thankful that you are reading this…. (not everyone would waste their time on this, maybe just you..hehe)

And most of all I THANK GOD…..and I’m sorry for being morbid sometimes.

that's all! Time for a Goodnight now.......

How could the rain be so mean to me?????

Just got home, caught in the middle of the heavy rain while on my way.....and my shoes are so messed and was soaked on the flood.. i might enjoy the rain if  only its not so polluted in here.... beware of leptospirosis too.. haha

and i looked so exhausted as this too..


Goodnight anyway!

Just Photographs and Memories

Who says scrapbooking is old school?? Yah, maybe to some but not to me..

My mom decided to print some of our pictures taken in Singapore and put them into an album, that’s when I realized that I should do the same thing too, I mean I must not be contented only in keeping my pictures on my laptop, nor on my facebook and multiply account. What if they’ll get hacked or be infected with virus again (it already happened to my laptop where I lost most of my files)?? I couldn't afford to lost those evidence of memories, not again...

And its way back in 2007 (I guess) where I last printed pictures, blame the improving technology on that, computers and the social networks!

But I would love to do that again, that compiling of photos!  So I’ve chose more than a hundred of photos here that was captured from 2009 to present and had them printed…. Pictures from different places and occasions.. even those most silliest picture I had.

And as of the moment, I’m still working on the captions on every pictures, I’m still remembering the reasons why those pictures are special!

 

9/14/2012

Feel my silent rage, coz I just can't tell you. If only I could let you know without me saying a word how much I hated, then I would.. you make me smile outside but you're breaking my heart..

I hated you because I had liked you, I don't want to feel this regrets because it wasn't my choice..maybe not your fault as well, I was stupid.

Swear, I am trying not to feel mad at you, but i couldn't stop myself, and I'm sorry for that. I just wish that you were once true, I don't have the right to ask you, though I really wanted to...

Someday, I will forgive you though you're not asking for it, you don't even know why you should be forgiven....

5 things I would like to tell 5 people right now 9.10.2012

1.      Thank you so much.. you’re truly a good friend! If it wasn’t for your help then I maybe lost somewhere.. hehe

2.      I was hesitant in meeting you because I’m still a bit disappointed.. but because “getting even” is not really my kind, and I don’t wanna do the same thing as you did, so I showed up…indeed, our friendship surfaced.. when we talked just like the old days, my “tampo” has fade (a bit-hehe)

3.      I regret that I liked you.. but if only I could stop this stupidity over you, then no second thoughts, I will. Or maybe I have moved on already, its just that I couldn’t think of anything—but you.. can you just get lost?

4.      You can’t fool me! I can be good to you as long as you’re not doing anything against me. I’m not being plastic anyway, coz when I dislike people, I rather stay away.

5.      Are you tired of calling me? I’m sorry I couldn’t answer it. Now, I’m wondering what you were thinking. Are you disappointed in me or you just realized what I’m trying to imply. Take care anyway!

9th of 9th of 2012

Hey… its Sunday and its about to end, I hate Mondays as always..

Anyway, so what we got here today?? Nothing so fascinating as always too but I love Sunday, you know that!

I woke up past 10am, I know that’s kinda late but you’ll forgive me if I’ll tell you that I rise from bed at 5:30 am Monday-Saturday..

I had this picture tripping, no breakfast yet, not even washed and brushed my hair, my teeth as well… hehe.. just wanna show the world how I looked messed up in the morning.. that my brother would tell me this when he saw the pictures.. “ew! Walang ligo, mukhang ang baho mo”.. hahaha

Anyway, so I ate breakfast, oh that’s “brunch” to be specific… then browsed the internet, chat with my sister and my friends, watched online the remaining episodes of walking dead season2 that I haven’t watched.

I just loved Glen!

Later this afternoon, I had a slight headache, so I decided to see the sun for awhile, the sunset coz that's already 5pm when i left my room.. I took my dirty clothes to the nearest laundry shop, bought some fruits and groceries at Save More, just few meters away from us.

And at the moment I’m back to watching the Walking Dead, it’s just a bit annoying the player is loading so sluggish, that’s why I’m doing this blog while waiting…. (sigh).

just happy..maybe..;)

Hey! I kinda miss you my diary…

just a while ago when I left the office, I was thinking of blogging, I have so much in mind, but now that I am facing you, thoughts seem to fade… maybe the traffic jam (that was really worst) –is responsible… I’m just so tired right now.

I just wanna tell you how I can’t understand my emotion today, I was having a good laugh with reason I couldn’t really pull out from the blurry, yah, I really don’t know why.. I’m not sure if it’s just that I’m happy or I’m getting crazy! Hehe.. I was even in an awkward situation just this afternoon, and you know what I did?!  laugh! Yah, like a fool… now, I’m wondering what they were thinking..

I was smiling alone while walking… now who cares anyway?! If they think I’m insane, then let them… hehe

Good night now! That’s all I can say.