Last day of 2013

Last day of 2013, is also my last night here at home for my vacation leave.. Tomorrow will be my flight back to Manila.. that means, for 4 consecutive years, I've been spending the new year half at home and the other half at Manila. That would also means that I've been breaking my heart on every first day of the year..

Anyway, how was my 2013??? It was a year where I got stressed, I went workaholic,  I fell inlove and I broke my heart too (haha), i got confused, i was fine, i was happy and I was sad, I was indecisive, I was left behind, i have learned, i became stronger, i had smiles and i had my river of tears...... to sum it all, i was alright! I can still smile right now..

What i am hoping for 2014?? I dont know! Haha... no more new years resolution.. but I wish, it would going to be a great year for me, i hope i could transform my self into a better and righteous person, i wish i could move on and let go of what should i let go, i wish i could be braver and face my fears, i am free and I wish i could make use of it... I wish I could realize and do what i really wanna do, i wish i would stop wasting my time and make a decision, i wish to be happy!

I know wishes are just wishes-- i need to do something.

I pray for my family's safety and good health too... and i pray for ________. :)

12mn is about to come.. and im on my bed already.. our father didn't tolerate us to celebrate the new year because we are not  suppose to... that's why i just have to sleep now and listen to the sound of 2013's farewell.

Good night and happy 2014 though! ;)

Hello Sunday Morning!

I slept late but I woke up early.. its unusual to me... I can still feel my eyes trying to shut down but my mind refused to... it feels like Im having a Monday morning sickness on a Sunday!

What's for today? Maybe no movie today... I've been at Glorietta Cinemas for three days this week.

Last Wednesday night, i was with my officemate.. she asked me to watch a movie, "when the love is gone", its not really my kind of movie, it hers! Hehe..  because i need to release my stresses that night so i said yes... i dont know the relevance of the title to the movie itself..  anyway, would you really consider love being gone sometimes? Or im just an idealist here believing that when you are truly inlove, it never fades... haha.. my belief sucks right?? Hehe.. as if i know what i ought to know.

On Friday night, i watched "Hunger Games: Catching Fire" all by myself... watching a movie on a big screen alone is not new to me.. try to do it sometimes, a time with yourself... hahaha... i had lots of time with myself anyway.. and who cares with  those mocking love birds that surround you... Anyway, cant wait for part 3.

Last night, i was with my brother, time to laugh that time, so we watched "Call Center Girl"... its his treat because he needs something from me! Hayst.. haha.. try this one too, bonding moment with your brother when you dont have a choice. Haha

So what's for today??? Maybe I should do some room cleaning.. cooking.. grocery.. send my used clothes to my ever favorite laundry shop - i still dont know his name! Haha, what else?? Oh God, I'm so typical and boring! Haha

thats it. Good morning Sunday!

Finally This Day is Over!

I just cant wait for this moment.. to be lying on my bed! Haha.. just got home and i haven't even change my uniform yet.. just give me ten minutes! 

When I woke up this morning, I wish this day would be over and now its over! Why? Because im expecting this to be a bad day... but See? Everything would be just fine..

That's it.. Good night!

The Discovery Primea

Elevation Along Ayala Avenue

Elevation Along Tuscany Side

Elevation Along Apartment Ridge

I was doing the cost report presentation and I need to upload the pictures my officemate took using my phone (Nakakainis kasi yung officemate ko na incharge sa mg pictures na to...I want updated pictures I said haha) when I was supposed to be on my way home last Thursday. 

Anyway, yun  nga, I was trying to send those pictures on my Email Add but something went wrong, I was rushing para i-figure it out why so instead I sent them here in my blogger account, kaya eto na!..

At nagawa ko pang umeksena! hahaha.. dont worry, di naman kasama to  sa presentation ko. haha

P.S. Hayst, why am I still here?... ilang beses ko na bang sinabing magreresign na ako! Wahhh.. haha

random thoughts on a sunday morning

Good morning Sunday!

I was typing this when a call from a friend interrupted me... at least i had a good laugh  talking to him.

He also asked me what are my plans today.. and thats what i'm about to write.

Im still on my bed, thinking what can I have for breakfast. I'm hungry already but im still sleepy. I slept late last night trying to wait for someone who doesn't care for me anymore... haha... and as expected, he didnt really care at all.. haha..

Door knocks woke me up this morning about past 7, thats my brother.. blame him for that early wake up call.

I should do some house cleaning today.. wash my uniform, send my other dirty clothes to the laundry shop, pick up the bunch i left there last week -- the attendant at that shop is being nice to me, its been more than a year but i still dont know his name.. haha.. feeling close pa naman sya saken.. hehe..

then have some groceries too.. then movies... then? What else... i know my routine is such a dull one... hehehe... i dont care for now...

i'm a bit unwell too... i have colds, i hope it wouldn't get worse.

so good morning sunday! Need to get up now...

a beautiful night

I just got home. And while walking home, i've  noticed that the sky is clear and there are few stars,  i haven't seen the night as beautiful as that... i felt like a child again, i know im such a baby and a hopeless romantic, i know i am! But stars are truly a beautiful scenery to me.. it always makes me feel good. I think that's the big dipper or the small dipper i guess i saw earlier.. or i'm just imagining.. hehe

I miss home.. i miss my childhood days.. i miss hanging out with my siblings at our rooftop, watching the myriad of stars, waiting for shooting stars, yes, i've seen one! No maybe twice or thrice if I remember it right.. the night there at the province was beautiful, unlike here in the big city, its polluted and the air is cloaked with smog, so if ever you'll see the sky with less than a hundred of stars, its already amazing!

When was the last time i had seen the night sky sparks? Where the stars are countless, cant even remember.... if air pollution would worsen, i might not see it again.

Good night!!!

My Sympathy and Prayers to the Victims of Typhoon Yolanda

What had happened to Philippines, particularly to Visayas Areas was so terrifying. It's actually beyond my imagination, seeing those  videos on the internet showing the destruction made by typhoon Yolanda (Haiyan) could bring tremors on my system. It's like, its only possible on movies. What if you were somewhere at  one of those most affected areas at that moment? I could only thank God, I was not.

 (photo not mine)

The said super typhoon was announced to be hitting the Philippines earlier last week, especially the Central part of the Philippines.. I think somehow residents had prepared for that, but most houses in these areas were made of light Materials, and even the Concrete Establishments were not not able to stand still . And the typhoon was indeed monstrous as they defined it. For that one day, its seems like they we're isolated and thrown somewhere, electricity and means of communication had

shut down. They were helpless! And we haven't heard of them for that one day of torture..

Seeing the news of what was left and wrecked is so heartbreaking! Death toll is still increasing. Countless is still missing. The looks of those affected are so distressing. Until today, some couldnt locate their family members, they don't even know if they are alive or not, clueless and almost hopeless. I know how hard it is to be just waiting and couldn't do a thing..  I have friends who have their relatives there and If only I know how to lighten up their burdens, then I'll give it a try.

My sympathy and prayers to the victims. For the survivors, keep strong. I hope my small donations could help.

I thank God that the people I love are safe.

It makes me think that I don't have the right to feel ungrateful and sad about my own problems at the moment, its totally nothing compared to those victims at Visayas.. I hope they could cope up easily.

God bless us all.

Nov. 3, Good days are over!

Sorry if I define "no work days" are good days! Do I  sound so delinquent here? Haha, who doesn't love the holidays?? Unless if you are passionately inlove with your job, don't ask me, I'm okay with my job..

Anyway, got two movies today, a Thai comedy movie, ATM Error-  I heard myself laughing several times because of this movie, but the story itself didn't really make an appeal to me, its so unrealistic, oo nga pala, most movies are really unrealistic...

Second movie, is an action movie, Man of Taichi - okay lang, I dont really have my kind of movies, kahit ano basta may sense, kahit pala wala okay lang as long as i'm not getting bored.. haha

I'm still watching the second movie right now, so here's my good night!

This is my November --- 2

Back to blogging? Thanks to the Holidays..

Anyway, nothing so special for this day, I didn't go out,  just at the nearby Grocery Store to buy something for dinner. And another movie marathon.

If I had shed so many tears yesterday for the movies I've watched, I shifted to something not so dramatic. Today I set for sci fi/thriller/action and the like type of movie.

Azooma - a Korean movie, a story of a mother who sought justice for her daughter. It was fine, but I didn't really have fun watching it.

The Colony - "When the Earth Froze, the rules of survival changed forever". Yun na yun, ayoko na mag-explain.. dahil di ko maexplain! haha.. But this one is my favourite for today!

Hummingbird - its nice.

Sorry, I'm a bit speechless in describing them.. But what matters is that these movies saved me from boredom... Don't misunderstood me, I just love the holidays! I would love to have an holiday forever! chos! who cares anyway??..haha

Walang kwenta yung blog ko ngayon. alam ko.

Good night! ;)

say good morning to me!!

Its 8:20am and im still on my bed... its like I couldn't get up because i could feel my heart and my head is loaded with so much weight (i know! So early for drama!) ..I want to sleep back but I just can't.. whats wrong with me or whats wrong with the world??

I want no more drama, im so sick of it, i just hate myself ranting, frowning and breaking as if the world would give a damn care!! As if it would stop and freeze because I'm being left behind... I know it wont, it never will... even the people you'd expect to be there for you will never care... and its nobody's obligation to cheer you up... its just you and yourself... and don't be so harsh with yourself because you're not the only person who's been hurting.

There I go again... hahahaha... I'm fine, im truly am, i may not be happy right now, but Im alright... 

Thats it! Because i'm done with my sentiments, i can rise from bed now and face this beautiful cruel world....

Bitter Sweet 1st of November 2013

This week could have been my favourite, because I worked just 3 days due to the Holidays.. The only thing I hate about it is I get to think of random and unwanted thoughts... so expect this, this is another drama! haha... its making me feel better by doing this so just let me.. I couldn't stop those thoughts anyway even if I wont write them down.

So what I got today?? Aside from roaming around the city, getting lost too... I had watched 3 Asian movies...

First, a koren movie -- You're Noir, a story about a gang member who followed the wife of a prosecutor investigating about their gang.. He happens to fall inlove, no, he was already inlove with the woman, because she was once his teacher. Anyway, I cried at this movie even at the beginning when it was not worth my tear anyway,, haha, such a cry baby, maybe I just want to cry my heart out, just finding an excuse.. It has a sad ending, but at least I saw the sense of it. Their love didn't last, but it was so REAL. ;(

Second movie is a Thai movie, its my favourite for today, entitled Bangkok Traffic Love Story, its about a 30 year old lady feeling desperate about being last among her friends to tie a knot... Hahaha, so you might be thinking that I could relate huh?! I'm not 30 yet, but I'm about to, not desperate as well, just almost?? hahah.. no, I'm not! haha... I had a good laugh on this movie, and I think I drowned my myself with my own tears too. I just love the character of the guy on how he treasures the things that relates the two of them, not obviously though. But when he sent those stuffs with attached messages to her before he left for abroad, I was so touched and moved (hahaha).. Is there still a man on Earth would do that? haha.. But the later part was a bit frustrating, when he didn't show up instantly when he returned.. why can't he be man enough to show up and set things clear once and for all?? If they didn't accidentally bump at each other on the Train Station, then they wouldn't have a happy ending?? So maybe that's when Serendipity works. ;)

The third movie I watched is Duet, a Korean film. A girl, musician, who had a trip to England and fell inlove to her tour guide, also a photographer. I found it quiet boring I wasn't really attentive watching this. I was writing a letter for myself too at the same time... hehe.. I must be crazy! But I just love the music played in here, the voice of that girl is so serene... and England is enchanting! and that kind of trip I wish I could do as well.. Anyway, I said, I wasn't really on focus on this one, but I knew for sure, the ending was both happy and lonely. The guy catching up, trying to promise things on how they would have to meet each other again, but the girl said while crying that there might be changes along the way. Well, so people change really.

That's it.. Its been a long time since I had my comments on movies.. I haven't watched so much of love stories recently. It wasn't the right time I guess.. See how it made me cry??  hahaha.. errr.. so, dont mistaken this as my halloween special... 

Last night, I've watched Thor: Dark World, two thumbs up on that! And I think I'm loving Loki too.. haha, I can't wait to see the next part, I need to know if I should love him really or I was just deceived... you'll know why I say so when you'll reach the ending.

Good night! I'm so sleepy now you might find my words messed up..

Paolo Coelho's Words of Wisdom

Paolo Coelho is one of my favorite author but I haven't read most of his works, so I followed his fan page and here are my favorite quotes and script from him..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

To Someone Getting Old Today hehe ;)

Hey there,

I wish I could give you real flowers too, so it could brighten up your birthday.. but ofcourse I can't .. All I can do is to wish you a happy birthday! I know it would be hard because you are far from the people you care about, that's why I'm wishing you are.

I don't know what we have here, or how long would it last. It might end up sooner or later, it wouldn't be easy  I know, but I'm gonna take it. But as long as we can, as long as I can, as long as its possible, I'll be here for you no matter how far you are, no matter how uncertain things are. And if ever what we got here would have to reach its end, I would still be thankful I've met you, someday you will be someone I would always remember, someone who brought smiles on my face --like I'm a fool! Haha

You are my beautiful disaster, things are complicated between us, but you are making me happy, I hope you are too somehow.

Hey I'm sorry, if there were times I was mean to you, that you didn't even know it, I hope you'd understand. I was just trying to comfort myself coz I couldn't deceived myself that I didn't care at all.

Sorry for the drama, I think I ruined your day.. Hehe.. I hope I didn't, you're suppose to be happy... I didn't intend to be a spoiler here.. I want you to be just fine... I want you to smile for me coz that's the only gift I could give you right now.

I want you to know that I care, no matter how mean I was, or how mean you were hehe, I still care... and I'm always missing you.... 

Happy Birthday!

Your Princess.. ;)

Rest in Peace my Dear Laptop

After half a decade of serving me, the laptop my father gave me finally gave up on me.. And its breaking my heart! I brought it to a technician and he said he couldn't get it fixed... Maybe it has reached its end as well,  yep, nothing lasts forever, if I save its life now.. Sooner or later, it will stop functioning no matter what, its inevitable like everyone does... Hahaha.. Ang O.A ko noh? Its just a machine I know,  but it wasn't really the laptop itself I am sad about, the files stored in it... Is there a way to retrieve them? My back up office files, my most treasured pictures from here and there, my movies, my music, my dramas, my secrets(haha), my diaries... My resignation letters (haha),my  resume....etceteras... I couldn't  afford to lose them, but I think I lost them now.. I haven't  even upload back the pictures that i lost here when multiply shut down. And I can't do anything about it now but to let go of them..

Am I taking it so seriously? Should I not?.. Spare me this drama, this is just my way of comforting myself... Hehe.. Now, I'm letting it go. Rest in peace my beloved diary, my journal, my dearest laptop, keep my secrets safe with you..

             
Now, i'm just feeling glad that no matter how old school it is, i have this scrapbook of mine in case I wont be able to retrieve the files in my laptop.. ;(

 

selfie

Because my Instagram account is flooded with selfie pictures, I Think i need an extension here.. and I'm sorry.haha.. 

Why these people are addicted in being narcissist?? And i'm not tagging my self as an exemption coz look what i have done here... i thought i am sick today but still i managed to do this foolish "kulang sa pansin" thing.. hahaha..  now can somebody tell me why??

Honestly, sometimes i find it annoying seeing people taking a lot of pictures of themselves, so, irritating din pala ako?! Haha..  well, not all.. meron kasing O.A talaga kong makapagpost.. ako ba?? Wat do you think? Hehe.. yung iba okay lang naman, but there are some that are overdoing it.... guilty ata ako dun? 

Now its time to defend the perks of doing the selfie thing.. meron nga ba? Maybe, there is, as long as you think that you still look good on pictures, then take lang ng take.. sooner or later, things will change, i think you know what i mean.. pictures are memories.. 

now say chizzz! Haha

Yours Truly is On Sick Leave

My eyes feeling drained right now after reading back my blog entries..yes, i might be bored that made me do that.. 

as always, my previous and old posts could make me tell myself this after reading them back: "really? Vain! Ew! Haha! Di nga? Mean! Arte ha?! Spelling mo mali! Wrong grammar! Sama ng ugali mo! Nanaman? Hayst! Tsk tsk!"

Myself is my own critic as well... But i never been mad at myself for saying so, regrets- maybe, but what else can i do? I couldn't stop myself from feeling those echoses at that very moment.

Hayst, im having a hard time in typing this using my brother's ipad mini.. My laptop and his laptop too is not behaving well, ayaw na mag-power on nung saken... Baka gusto na talagang mgretire after 5 long years of serving me (thanks to my father).. 

I'm on my sick leave today, yah i'm not really feeling better, i have flu and I lost my voice!haha..i dont know but i love my voice if  its paos like this, kaso it hurts, i dont want to talk a lot, good thing i have no one to talk to.. Hehe...  I'm resting here that's why no matter how our Monthly Progress Billing is hauting me, im not entertaining it.. Bahala na bukas.

Thats all for now.

September 29 2013

So long! Hehe... 

Still i have my laptop unfixed yet.. and i dont wanna use my brother's' either, it needs to be fixed as well, nababaliw na rin... kaya ang ibig sabihin di na ako masyadong makakapag-emote.. haha.. im not that patient enough para magtyaga sa cellphone ko... hehe

Wala rin naman akong sasabihin... just wanna try using my phone in posting my corny drama here... hehe

today.. ive watched 3 movies-- Breakout, Long Weekend and Journey to the West... okay lang.. di naman ganon kaganda pero pwede ma rin.. hehe

then i went to robinson  mall to buy some stuffs and groceries... tapos yun na! Parang ang tamad lang noh? Hehe

good night!

ITS A HOLIDAY!

It’s my fourth day of doing nothing! It started on Sunday - my off, Monday – I didn’t go to work due to bad weather, Tuesday – work was suspended, Today – It’s a holiday!

The only thing that would put smiles on me on a stormy day is the suspension of work and  the sound of the pouring rain, the rest, it’s a disaster, most part of Manila is flooded… and it disheartens me. .. I pray for everyone’s safety.

I need a break , I deserve this, (though I’ll be expecting a flood of work as well when I get back,, hahaha, bahala na!)

I had lots and lots of sleep, food tripping, movies, and….( Yun lana ata ginawa ko), and now I think I need to update my blogger by doing this, maybe I’ll try to upload back the deleted pictures (pero mukhang tinanatamad na ako hehe)..

I’m supposed to meet a friend today but how can we when the weather is still misbehaving. ;(

That’s all.

Late Birthday Post

It’s my 4 years of blogging and I never missed to blog about my birthday, but now I am 12 days late to post this. 

I have really nothing to say now (I kept on saying the same things everytime my birthday comes)… So this would be quick, I just wanna say Thanks to all who greeted and remembered me.

My officemates, all  of them.

 My old time friends. 

My facebook friends, though some only remembered me because FB told them, hehehe, still I’m thankful). No more cut and paste of pictures of your greetings, I’m getting old I’m becoming impatient.. hehe

To the one responsible for this.. Thanks ;)

And to my family… (but we’re not supposed to celebrate birthdays! Hehe), glad that Eid’l Fitr falls on the same day I was born for this year, we could have food tripping.

There goes my youngest baby brother, I still call him baby though he's even taller than me now.

Last night home

Maybe i should post about what happened yesterday... Because it was my birthday.... But i'm running out of time.. Maybe i will, when i get back to manila.. I need to pack my things, and i'm kinda sleepy too..  Hayst, i'm breaking my heart nanaman... I hate leaving home!

Good night!

Sunday's Just Nothing

When was the last time I did this? Me, recording my Sunday’s whereabouts, as if my Sunday’s are extraordinary---- when the truth is, its dull and boring, but I’m not sad about that! Haha… 

So what did I do today?

Woke up late as always! Don’t give me that look coz I just need need a break… hehe

Watched Serendipity! I’ve heard so much of that movie but I just watched it this morning, loser huh?!... hehe… and it was a nice one as everybody did say.  Well, is there really such this as that? Maybe, I’m a fool too, I once believed that soulmates are real, maybe really not, I just want to believe they do exist, loser again?! Haha..  What can I do, I’m a hopeless romantic, nyahaha.. (ew that, I don’t care! Hehe)… and, maybe soulmates  do exist, but it doesn’t mean that you are meant to be together…  so there I go again with my sentiments, cut it Ash! Hehe

So, after watching that, I decided to do something with sense, washed my uniform and brought my other dirty clothes to the nearby laundry shop. Then went straight to Robinson , (I broke my fast for a girl thing reason, yes I have my period!) , then I tried window shopping, but its not really my type, I rather go home, I got bored roaming around, so I went to the grocery to buy some stuffs  and something to cook for dinner (para maiba naman!) hehe…  Buttered shrimp (nanaman!) hehe, just one of the few dishes I knew how to cook almost perfectly.. (Something to be proud of !)

Then had a quick chat over the phone with my mom and my sister.

What else?, this is what I am doing now… watched the series “Once Upon a time”, Facebooking and obviously Blogging!

 

I miss posting  pictures!.. when I imported my blog entries from multiply to Blogger, I lost the pictures! Out of more that  500 entries, more than half of it  are with pictures and they are all gone, I might  upload them back again.

That’s all for today!

"Saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had. Hearts are often broken by words left unspoken"

“Have you ever wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had nor, or saying nothing and wishing you had. Hearts are often broken by words left unspoken”.

I just read the quote above and it made me wonder as well. But if you are to ask me which is which, honestly, I really couldn’t tell, I wish I know the answer and I will be able to apply it in real life. I have so much of those words left unspoken too (obviously, the reason why I have this website), and as what as I’m expecting, it brought me to the edge of my resentment. Regrets are actually my friend already (laugh, but I’m okay). But who knows, if I did the other way around, it might got worst. 

Anyway, why would I rather keep my words unrevealed? I got my reasons -- because I don’t wanna hurt anyone, I know that would be inevitable, but at least I’m trying. And I don’t wanna hurt my self too, I know not saying what you want hurts too, but sometimes because you don’t wanna hear the answer, you just have to seal your lips. Like, when you care for someone, and you felt they don’t feel the same, what’s the point of telling them? In the very first place, why would you care for someone who doesn’t feel the same way? Guess, that’s part of the world cruelness.  

But I’m not completely against of not saying the things you’re supposed to say, coz I’ve done that already too. I had stopped my self coz I might not handle the consequence., but I failed. I’m breaking some of my rules too.

I had a confession to someone, until now I wasn’t sure if I did the right thing… Or maybe it wasn’t the right thing, but honestly, it made me breath well! For a brief moment, I didn’t care how things would change when I did that, all I know is, I want that person know what I truly feel. I felt good right after, it’s like I’ve been carrying a load in my heart and for that sudden moment, I’m relieved. If only you knew what I went trough before doing that.  And that thing I’ve said to someone is something that would never have a good ending coz this life I have is never like the fairy tales, but I’m still brave enough to tell. I didn’t expect for an answer anyway (though I really want to know). Yes, in saying what you feel, be brave enough not to expect anything in return. 

So that’s it. I wasn’t able to answer which is which. All I know is, this world is not an easy place to be. Every single thing depends on your choice, nothing is really right nor wrong.  Everybody hurts anyway.