HAPPY EID'L FIT'R

HOW BOUT BLOGGING IN THE AIRPORT, WAITING FOR DEPARTURE

my brother and I arrived so early here at NAIA, kaya heto walang magawa.... baka maiwan na naman ng eroplano, haha, there was one time kasi na naiwan ng eroplano kapatid ko dahil late.. haha

anyway in less than 30 minutes na lang at boarding na.

Good luck na lang saken bukas

i've done the best that i can do for today... and tomorrow, good luck na lang sa akin! hahaha... this is not a board exam anyway, not even final exams.... reconciliation lang 'to! haha.. it supposed to be no sweat! obviously, here i am comforting my self again... who would do it for me anyway if i dont??!!hahahaa

Good night!

Im ONE STEP CLOSER TO THE EDGE I'm ABOUT To BREAK

yeah, i am! but i'll save that one step so i wont break! haha

on my way home, i said i wont get myself online tonight, i must rest, my eyes about to drain now, i'm soo busy i dont know which i will prioritize first... but look what i'm doing now.. anyway this wont take long, i just need some uplifting words from myself as well..

got the schedule of the continuation of the reconciliation, that will be on thursday... and the quantities to be reconciled are those i'm not prepared yet... i mean, i have my quantities  ---- shattered, i need to arrange them and review them.. some i almost forgot, others were endorsed to me by officemate (on Maternity leave now).... but i wont say i can't... and still, it would be at DLS office.. bad!

no room for cramming now.. here's what i should do tomorrow...

since i've got no time to review all of those,  here's what i should do..

print all the files I need.. Thresholds estimate, the Tub ledges, and the floor finishes, start with basements wall stone finishes and so on (or to where the time would let me)... dont forget to separate the e-files of those quantities, and convert your autocad file to 2004 version... also, preapare clean sheet of the key plans at least two sets.. prepare the plans you'll bring.

Ok Ash, you can do this! DLS wouldn't eat you, and they are not that smart either.. right? Go! I believe you!

And the replenishment of the Petty Cash, do that on Friday, and  that task your PM told you to do which he hasn't give you yet, tell him your busy! haha

So, you better turn off this laptop  now, and have some rest!

Para akong Tanga Today!

Despite the title, I have accomplished something productive naman today, naglinis ng kwarto, the dust almost drowned me... the nearby rooms kasi had some rennovation, tile works and etc..

So what made me parang tanga today? because i was so undecided where to go, I planned of going to Market Market, but when i went down our boarding house, i took the jeepney heading Robinson Mall.. midway to the mall, rain poured heavily, made me feel so annoyed, nabasa kasi ako.

I stroll, despite my jeans and shoes wet, but i found nothing... yeah im looking for something! still, confused, pupunta naba ako ng market market? my head ached a bit, not to mention, I'm fasting. I left Rob, and thinking of going to mArket Market. But guess what, I found myself in glorietta, err.. I bought a pair of Converse chuck taylor shoes at Shoe Salon, then I went straigt to SM-Makati, actually not straight, its onward backward, as in urong sulong.. haha, there I bought a bag (for my mom)...

Still, I was looking for something, so pupunta na talaga ako sa Market Market??.. i thought, so I left SM, dropped by at Landmark when a flashback broke in, the last time I went to Market Market, I had a hard time in the transportation, ewan anong meron non. so finally, I decided not to go...

eto ang masaklap, I went back to Robinson.. haha.. Robinson Ermita and Glorietta is actually on opposite direction from my place.

I had my grocery, and cut my fast at Jollibee with a starbucks Mocha Frappuccino.

So now, I'm home while doing this and eating these.

FOREVER AND A DAY DAY

dont get me wrong, I'm no fan of KC Conception and Sam Milby... I'm actually irritated in their acting,  OA kase! but not in this movie, yes at least hindi masyado.

I never intend to watch Forever and A Day, even the trailer before, i found it so corny.. so I said, no way I'm gonna watch it.

But my officemate recommended me to watch it, so I did, and the story is actually not the one I exepected it to be, kala ko kasi puro kacornihan lang, may sense naman pala... and i was touched... nakakaiyak daw, but I didn't cry ha, kelangang pigilin ang luha. haha

but its not really a rare story as well, its just another "A Walk to Remember" or the classic movie "Love story"... so, you got the idea now??

My favorite line was this: "Kaya mo bang mahalin ang isang taong alam mong mawawala rin sayo?" if you're to ask me, my answer is. Yes, I could even love someone I never had a real moment with e... I do believe that loving a person doesn't mean you need to be with them.... haha, ako pala ang corny dito!

Anyway, I love the Cinematography... the movie exposed the exceptional beauty and  the must-visit places in Mindanao. Water rafting in CDO, the zip line in Bukidnon and Tinago falls in Iligan... I just felt bad that I was raised in Mindanao and been to CDO--but not gone to water rafting, dropped by at Bukidnon--but i never had the suicidal experience of that zipline, been to Iligan City, just an hour from my University, but never visited Tinago Falls--hindi kasi matuloy tuloy non hnaggang sa dina talaga natuloy!

Anyway... got to sleep now.

OUTCOME OF LAST NIGHT'S BLAH BLAH BLAH

how was it?? im so sleepy na talaga kaso kelangan kong isulat to.

its actually far from my expectation! i was welcomed nicely..

And maam "L" of DLS whom I thought is some kinda of a witch.... is actually so nice, nagiguilty tuloy ako... errr.. and im torn in two now, kasi since she was nice ayoko ring ilaglag sya sa mga superiors ko, there is something kasi na ikakagalit nila pag sinabi kong hindi kompleto yung quantities nila that instead of comparing na lang, actual na lang ulet.... pero hindi naman lahat... I'm was a good girl to her din kanina, and i dont want her to think na plastic ako kase basta.. hehe

What shall i do now? my superiors got their point and so with the DLS.... err.. ayaw kong ilagalag si maam "L" at ayoko ring madismaya superiors ko... ang hirap maging mabait!! haha

and one thing that you will miss if your out of the office??.. this

pero okay na rin, kasi nagfafasting naman ako...at tsaka ok na rin na wala ako, kase...... hulaan nyo???? hahaha (as if) and tnx, they're still sweet to save me a slice of cake.

anyway friday pala bukas, wish me luck na lang sa report...!

This is really is it!

Finally DLS won it, we have to do the reconciliation of quantities at their office tomorrow, that supposed to be today but was cancelled due to some issues. We actually did not agree, that we should do the reckoning in our office-- thats actully where the project is. And we knew very well that we have complete files than they have, and how bout our queries? who would answer it there?.. and the sofware or program they're using in their estimates, I dont even know that.

I think they just dont wanna be in our office anymore, i told you, they are not in good terms with my superiors and our PM...

and I'm being paranoid here too.. but I wanna tell my self this:

ASH, DONT PRAY FOR ANOTHER CANCELLATION OF THE SAID RECONCILIATION, INSTEAD PRAY FOR WISDOM, FOR A GOOD CONDITION AND PRESENCE OF MIND TOMORROW.. BE CONFIDENT, YOU'VE SWEAT YOUR SELF IN YOUR QUANTITIES, SO THERE'S NO REASON FOR YOU TO LOOK STUPID THERE. DONT LET THEM OUTWIT YOU... KAYA MO YAN! IF YOU WANT TO UPGRADE YOUR SELF, YOU NEED THIS. DONT WORRY, WHATEVER YOU'LL AGREED IS SUBJECT FOR FINALIZATION. TRUST YOUR SELF!!!!

^__^

I heard this everywhere and was sent to me thru text message for nth times. and just today. somebody sent it to me again..

This what they called PHILOSOPHY OF LOVE:

"KUNG HINDI MO MAHAL ANG ISANG TAO, WAG KANG MAGPAKITA NG MOTIBO PARA MAHALIN KA NYA."

"HUWAG MO NG BITAWAN ANG BAGAY NA HINDI MO KAYANG MAKITANG HAWAK NG IBA"

"KUNG MAGHIHINTAY KA NG MAGLALANDI SAYO, WALANG MANGYAYARI SA BUHAY MO, DAPAT LUMANDI KA DIN"

"PAG MAY MAHAL KA AT AYAW SAYO, HAYAAN MO! SA MGA SUSUNOD NA ARAW, AYAW MO NA RIN SA KANYA, NAUNAHAN KA LANG NYA."

"KUNG DALAWA ANG MAHAL MO, PILIIN MO YUNG PANGALAWA DAHIL HINDI KA NAMAN MAGMAMAHAL NG IBA KUNG MAHAL MO TALAGA YUNG UNA."

"PAG HINDI KA MAHAL NG MAHAL MO, WAG KANG MAGREKLAMO KASI MAY MGA TAO DIN NA DI MO MAHAL PERO MAHAL KA, KAYA QUITS LANG!"

those lines, they make sense right?? may tinatamaan ba?? haha... coz somehow i was hit too.. haha

so? am i wasting a page in my multiply for this? for I am someone who know nothing about corny love?! hahaha.... of course i know something about that stupid thing--love! in fact no matter how i guarded my heart, still, it was been broken many times... (ews!).. i guess that's part of being human right? i just dont make it obvious and i dont let it ruin me... it must not!

I'm Feeling Down Today!!

Why?

it started last night. and this is not new. confused again, its my job, i dont know if I'll pursue it or not, I wanna try venturing abroad. caught in the thought that I'm only wasting my time here. I have a good job here, but it seems that I want more, i mean, i wanna go abroad.. coz i dont wanna do that when I'm older... and Im way so soon to that.

Jeny- my best buddy in the office had her resignation letter printed this afternoon.. so bad!

I'm still pretending unhurt, not affected... that goes for EXJR... tough! haha

The continuation of reconciliation of our floor finishes quantities will be at DLS's (owner's quantity surveyor) office, oh no! who am I gonna ask there if i have queries? and I'm also paranoid that they will not treat me in a good way there since my superiors were being harsh to them too (kasi nman e!) ., that they will overpower me there.... no! no! no!... I wont let them outsmart me, I must be confident because I knew very well my own work. And If I wanna level up, then I must face challenges. (kaya ko 'to).. obviously, I'm comforting my self.. hehe

Speaking of DLS' office, I've been there before, I've submiited my application so long time ago.. I had a funny experience when I entered their building, I saw Ai Ai de las Alas, she's actually having a taping there, I even hesistated getting inside, and when I asked the security guard, which way to DLS? he answered me.. "talent lang po ako dito".. hahaha! so he's part of the shooting huh!

oh, one thing thats making me unhappy today? when i got home later this afternoon, I saw the middle aged man residing adjacent to our room. So he finally came back after more than half a year now hah, errr.. he's presence annoys me! really!

tha's it..

ANOTHER MONDAY MORNING SICKNESS

Cover your ears, close you eyes, shut this page... this is drama. this is something I dont wanna do as well, I tried to distant myself from unhappy thoughts, but it keeps on niggling me.

Why can't I have that hunch as to what am I really suppose to do with my life, to make it productive?? my life seems to be a joke, its like I'm just extemporizing along the way, but I'm not even convinced if I'm trailing the right path.

I've been to this kind of reflection over and over again, i could even throw up for this unending notion, but I just can't make up my mind. damn! i'm such a loser on that matter.. (haha)

Wha'ts been racing in my mind the whole day? I want to quit my job, I wanna go somewhere.  I want a life!

P.S. I'm feeling down today, reasons why will be on my next blog, but I would set it for my contacts only, that would be a bit confidential or should say, more dramatic than this.

8/14/2011

just heard news today that wont cease on nagging me now. I'm about to sleep but some thoughts distract me..

another year added to my age, but im not moving up.. im heading up a tailspin but i couldn't decide.

i was also thinking of quitting my job and have my venture abroad, that idea is actually had snowed under my idleness, my poor decision making. err... but i would love to step into the helipad of our 67th storey condo with projected accomplishment on 2013.. but i cant wait.. im getting old..

but what i'll give this up , then I'll regret... how would i know anyway?

what will i do?

DOUBLE MY GUILT TODAY

wahhhhh! i could hate myself today! why?? because Just like yesterday, i wasn't able to wake up in time for Sol, I could almost jumped off my bed when I saw my time past 4am.. this time i could remember that i heard my phone alarmed at 3:25am, but slept back (hate me!) this is one reason why doing the fasting here alone is tough (my bro on duty).

But still, I ate the food I prepared for Sol, and I intend to continue my fasting, if it isn't accepted then I will still not eat till six today, i deserved a punishment. Most disappointing is that I tried setting the alarm clock of my other phone before I went to sleep last night, but I didn't, i was thinking, twice in a row? impossible.... err.. I can't believe my self.

Swear.. this wont happen again.

GET A LIFE!

... i'm supposed to do some blogging,  about life, yah my life.. that's why i have that title.. but as i started my first line, i realized, i hate drama now! haha

i was just wondering if i'm living the life i deserved or at at least i belong.... im confused.. i maybe not... i said, no drama for now.

anyway, how was my saturday?

I felt bad a little, I was not able to do fasting today because i woke up 5 already this morning.. as far as could remember i set my alarm clock at 3:25am, i dont know why i wasn't able to hear  it ring  or maybe i turned it off, i dont know. I'm guilty.

at office. my friend jeny is out for seminar in our head office, along with the newbies. But the operation team, Mac, Allen, Jhonard and James gave me a merienda treat.

I watched Bring it on (Fight to the finish) during the break... nice movie.

met an highschool kabarkada, Belle, this afternoon.

and now, im just sooooo sleepy and tired.

Good night!

"I WONDER" from someone wondering

"...and my heart still aches.. i wonder if that would make you happy... i wonder if you intend to break it... i wonder if i'd ever had hurt you too and now you take revenge...i wonder if im wrong.. i wonder if i ever had a space in your heart.... i wonder if you'd think of me too somehow.... i wonder which words you said were truth or lies...i wonder if your smiles are fake... i wonder if you'll look at me the way you look at me yesterday...i wonder if you'll remember me at least, dont forget me.."

"I wonder if you know who are you... i wonder if you know i was wondering..."

8/10/2011

I think I’m going to have a tough job nowadays, aside from the Petty Cash I’m holding, I’ll be starting to reconcile the Floor finishes we quantified before.. the worst is, I have to deal with the Owner’s quantity surveyor, I heard she’s a witch! Oh, that would be tomorrow.. wish me luck!

updated: 8/11/2011

I know I did well.. and she's not really a witch as i've thought.. sad thing is, they're not in good terms with my boss and my sup..

SA MGA BUMATI, TNX! YOUR GREETINGS WILL BE TREASURED HERE

MY COLLEGE FRIENDS

HIGHSCHOOL FRIENDS

MY RELATIVES

DATEM'S DISCOVERY PRIMEA TEAM--my present job

RSP ENT INC and MDCC ICMI- Past jobs

OLD GOOD FRIENDS
OTHER FB FRIENDS

Because I do keep and value even small stuffs, I have saved your greetings here, just like what I did last year, I still have what you guys posted in my wall… wanna see it? Open this link –August 9, 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

So how did I spend my birthday?

It actually started with a mess. I was about to leave my place earlier than my usual today coz I’m being late for work thrice now for this month, four more and I’ll be warned for a suspension.

But all of sudden, a heavy rain seemed to pour in rage. I waited for a taxi for about 15 minutes, but there were none on hire.. Where were they???! So, I was impatient, I walked a little, got myself on the queue and waited for a jeepney…  no chance still, I was raging to go, so I hopped in to this some sorta stray tricycle…, the black belching vehicles, the rain, it made me feel untidy! Yes I love the rain but not on my way to office… oh my! Why on my birthday???!! haha

Anyway, enough for that, and as expected I was late. But my almost annoyed mood faded when I reached the office, everybody greeted me. My boss kept on teasing me, that I wanted a grand entrance, that I was late for a purpose, if only he knew.. hehe

I’m overwhelmed with maam may’s (my supervisor) surprises, she posted a picture of me with happy b-day greetings on our bulletin and on our department too, she also sent greetings aired on the radio, and gave me a simple gift. Thanks to her!

But unfortunately, I couldn’t do the pakain today for I am observing Ramadhan…. I told them, I will on September.

So, that’s it.. Expecting more???? Hahaha.. , I don’t really celebrate birthdays; I mean not in a grandiose way… our father didn’t tolerate us. Though my siblings and I, celebrated our first birthdays, but we called that kanduli. After that first, we just satisfy ourselves with a simple salo salo at home with my  family during our birthdays. When I was in my secondary years, I used to make libre my few close friends, in college too. If I could remember it right, the last time I had cake on my birthday was my 18^th.

And what to celebrate in getting old??? Hahaha… I’m still denial right? But ofcourse, I am grateful I’ve come this way.

Anyway, just done preparing macaroni salad, for myself and for my chosen neighbors.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

I’m wishing…..

I'm Wishing Upon a Star.....

zzzzzzzzzzz...... good night sayo!

AUGUST 8, 2011

woah... tomorrow is my birthday, so its been a year since I wrote this. hehe

So how did I spend my last day of being this age???

I dont know..usual. i still had early morning monday sickness, but later on, I was happy naman, reason? wala naman... good mood lang siguro.

And I've been playing Parokya ni Edgar's  (w/ Happy Sy) PANGARAP LANG KITA, all day.. hehe... cute kase. I had it on my phone, on my computer at office, on my laptop--no, on my brother's laptop since I rarely use my old one.  Baduy na kung baduy, hindi naman ata....

I like this line....

"..kahit may gusto ka, di mo masabi
Hindi ako yung tipong, nagbibigay motibo. conservative ako
kaya, di maari
kahit mahal kita, wala akong magagawa
tanggap ko o aking sinta
PANGARAP LANG KITA

8/7/2011

i dont know what's the title of this, i can't think of any adjective to describe my sunday today.... so its the date again.

Yesterday, I was thinking of going somewhere today, treat myself, but ofcourse that would be hard cause I'm fasting... so instead of going anywhere, I did some cleaning here in my muddled room, hehe.. had some moments with my multiply site.. post anytthing goes.. read.

and now, I'm about to cook spaghetti. yey!

BYE 26!

These pictures were taken between August 9 2010-August 8, 2011.....
I dont think I'm a narcissist, ofcourse I wanna be beautiful, who don't want to?? haha... though I'm really not..., and i don't even exert effort to be one... hehehe...

anyway, just posting pictures of me here before wrinkles or any sign of aging will finally come into my life.... wahhhhhhhhhhhh....

REMINSCING HOME

Good thing I still have my 4 year old phone where I can still scan old photos in it.. when I want to look back whatever I want to get reminisced of, i have evidence.

So here's for today.. Old photos taken 'at home' saved in my phone.

My family. My parents with our youngest on his 6th grade graduation about 4  years ago. My mom's photo on her yearbook. Our eldest bro photo in a frame hanged in our wall of pictures. our second trying to get his best shot on our living room. Me and my sister also at the living room. My other three brothers on our porch. me and my sister again in our room.



My self.


Our ever (magulo )  sweet home... Taken about three years ago.. a 20 year old house composed of 6 bedrooms, 2 baths, 1 kitchen, 1 dining, 1 library room, wide living room and corridor. But the arrangement changed now.