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KUNG HEI FAT CHOI

Maybe one of the good ways to escape from knot and gnarls of life is to have fun, stroll here and there!… yah, I know you’ll tell me this, how can you have fun when it seems that the world is on your shoulder??!.... I don’t care, just have fun! Hehe

Honestly, I’ve been feeling so anxious these days, it even caused me migraine..  I was  pestered by someone. I was so undecided, confused and irritated. That’s why I said I needed a friend on my previous blog.

So, yesterday, Ate Vicky- my neighborhood and I went to Robinson Mall, she gave me a treat and we walk around there, window shopped and paid our Internet bill.

Today, I’ve got no plan of going out but my former officemates Ryan and Marky texted me. So, to make use of the Chinese New Year, we tangled ourselves in this crowd at Binondo.

So bad, I forgot to bring my camera, not again! Tnx to my phone.

Lunch at Wa Ying (if you still consider 2Pm a lunch time), no matter how we almost got impatient with the queue was, we're still eager to taste this most talked about Chinese recipes in Binondo.

The foods are truly mouthwatering!

KUNG HEI FAT CHOI EVERYONE!

...and I need a good friend

Yeah, I need someone to tell me what to do right now but it seems that got no friends anymore, let me rephrase that, no one’s available, I have very few (true and reliable) and yet no one is so available, I don’t even think if they would even remember me.. haha, there I go again on my old unending dramas, and  maybe this so called friends of mine got so irritated and sick of my growling and ranting non sense here… so they runaway and hide.

I once thought that I am an exception of “no man is an island”, I must be pretending, that was a defense mechanism I guess.

My random thoughts now are driving me crazy. I couldn’t make up my mind as always. Should I go or should I not??! To where? In a far far away land.. hehe.. I was weighing things but I still find them in equilibrium. Its making me so doubtful.. I’m running out of time I know.

This is supposed to be a good day… But I can’t start things right. This morning I woke up heavy hearted, still upset with my boss. I couldn’t believe he won’t cease on teasing me ( I couldn’t even tell what) when I said enough. I’m so much fed up with his jokes. I know I shouldn’t, “ang pikon laging talo”, but not everyone would accept his being mean… errrr…. I’m so annoyed! And I think I would add that to my list why I should leave the company soon.

Its noon, but I haven’t accomplished anything with sense. I tried to book a plane ticket online, there’s a promo but I didn’t click the go yet… sigh

I need help here….. Come on friends!

BAD PEOPLE ON MY WAY

As I grow old and have to get along with people—which I’m not really good at, I’m learning their ways. And people are naturally having a bad side I guess and I’m here to give samples of those people I knew who are not just simply mean but above it. I’m your spy now, reporting!

But ofcourse, no name mentioning, hahaha, I’m still protecting their identity, see? I’m not that cruel huh and don’t bother asking why I’m jotting this down.

There are people who wouldn’t be happy if you’re happy, they will destruct you, even find ways to hinder you reach your dreams. I don’t know, why can’t they mind their own businesses. Maybe the logic is like this.. They couldn’t get a  good life, so they wont let you get a good one as well. Am I describing crab mentality here?

Some people will always criticize you, they will only see your mistakes, they would die first before they give you compliments.

You will never be right and they couldn’t be wrong. This kind of people annoys me so much, they won’t admit their mistakes while they will make you feel so stupid for your simple misdoings.

Plastic! They’re unpredictable, they backstabbed others and you thought you’re good, but when you’re not around, you’re the subject for a firing squad.

Super goody! Feeling soooo perfect when they’re not.

Liars!

Heartbreakers-- people who will make you feel important when they don’t actually mean it. Those who wouldn’t give a damn that they’re already breaking your heart. I wonder if they’d taste sweetness when they see you hurting…

Unjust people, I’m referring to those in  higher positions, those who only see and recognize subordinates in not so fair manners. They judge people wrongly, they deal only to those they wanna get along with, only sees specific people and criticize those they disliked, gives you what you don’t deserve and would never consider chances.

And the one that frustrates me a lot? Those people whom you thought your friends, those who will leave you behind, those who will only remember you when they needed something from you. Those who’s so insensitive enough to consider your feelings.

And the like….. so many mean people in the world right? And yes maybe I’m not aware that I’m one of them, ofcourse I don’t wanna be like them! If I am, then surely I’m not that worst. As I’ve said, every human has negative attitudes. But if there will only be two choices left--- good or bad, then maybe I still belong to the former.

Why am I saying this? Because I want to convince myself that wherever I go, I will meet people like I’ve mentioned above, running away isn’t a solution but accepting their existence and learn how to deal with them. I want to tell myself to be strong enough for whatever those bad people would cause me.

Hey bad people, get yourself a good grasp coz there’s no way you’ll going to tear me, I wont let you mess around my life!!!!

I WANT A LIFE

I don’t know if this is exactly what I want, or maybe I’m just too blind to see… I’m not happy, but not that miserable as well. I know it’s only me, I’m a having a battle with myself. Sometimes I thought I knew what to do but I ended up doing nothing. I’m running out of courage, my weakness is cloaking me, damn, I can’t move on! I play safe, but I still break my heart. I’m not growing up, just growing old, and it distresses me. Regrets happen in every ending of a decision, but in my case I regret now, coz I couldn’t even come up a resolution. What’s wrong with me?

 I’m dreaming, I’m wishing and I’m hoping and I think I’m crying my heart out coz I know those are not the way to reach the pedestals of my desired happiness, I need to make a move, I need to do something. If I don’t take chances then nothing will change, I will be stuck.

O somebody tell me what I can do to have that guts for me to realize the right things to do. I want a LIFE!

I’m praying.

UP

So, its been like forever since the last time I had my movie reviews, I’m just being busy. That’s the irony sometimes, you’re being given a scanty time in doing the things you love.. haha

Anyway, this lunch break in our office, I’ve watched the animated movie “UP”, maybe because I’m such a loser dreamer why I liked it, or maybe the kid in me is just showing off.

Its making me wonder of so many things, I wanna be somewhere else, let those balloons take me there… I’m such a fantasist here.

On some point, I felt bad about Mr. Fredricksen’s wife, she died not getting into the place she been dreaming of for so long. and I was thinking of myself, I have so many wishes in my mind, so many places I wanna get myself to, but I’m not taking chances, I’m so in frail to do so, im still waiting to get my self a good grip and explore, be in no doubt and more independent. Oh, I’m not the topic here.. hehe

 Lets get back to the movie.. I had fun, its maybe childish but I have absorbed some values on it. Its about reaching your dreams, saving memories, helping those needy and soaring high!!

and its my kind of movie, the scrapbook thing--i love that.

The little kid Russel, he was so adorable!

go watch it!

and yes i knew it, this is not a new movie.....

No title but Dear Diary

i dont know.

i wanted to write but i'm being impatient. If only the thoughts in my mind would automatically pour on here then that would be easier.. words seem to run away though thoughts are flooding in my mind... i hope you could comprehend with what i am trying to imply. err..

swear i would love to blog right now, but my idleness is overpowering me telling me that its only a waste of time, that i better rest my self for its already 8:19 here.

i was reading scarlet's walk blog about the resaon behind her singleness, and take it from someone who thought could relate (that's me) i suddenly wanted to do same thing--- post the reason why am i single as well.. hahahaha... (honestly, im not sure why.. haha)

i want to edit my previous blogs and post some pictures but that would mean i would shift to my own laptop (im using my brother's) but im being indolent here.

that's it.

My first AirPhil Express Experience

Ever since I worked here in Manila, I’ve been flying with Philippine Airlines every time I leave home, and Cebu Pacific for my way back home.

But yesterday, I had my first airphil experience, that was fine not to mention the delay.... air traffic chuvaness occured.