4.28.14

I just got home from a super "traffic jam" trip from my workplace to here.. It was really hot today, then the rain poured heavily when I got out of the jeepney... I could say, ang malas ko naman but I still love the rain!

I was feeling okay today... yes, after I got really upset yesterday...

And maybe you would think that I wasn't really busy  because I got the chance to take these photos.. maybe.

Have a break, have some funny face! 

Have a break, have some coffee but someone took advantage! Haha

Thanks!

The Makati at night... Just feeling bored while walking alone so I decided to take some pictures...

Yun  lang! :)

I'll Tell Myself, I'm Gonna Be Okay

I've been feeling upset the whole day.. I've been worried, uncomfortable and a bit anxious.

I miss my mom and my brothers who just got here in Manila for about a week, aside from visiting  me and my other brother, they were here for some transactions... But they left yesterday.

Now it's been so silent here.. This small room seems so wide.. that one week they've been here was one of my best days, we were so noisy, we laugh out loud, I told and show them how we live our life here, we tease each other as if we are still those little kids before, I could even want to complain that we are overcrowding the room... but now I missed them already. I hope they are doing fine and safe on travel.. they're still on the road or on the barge by now..

They took the plane in getting here and chose to take the way home by land... Maybe that almost 3 days of travel is a bit exhausting but I know there is fun in it.. Its like you are  marveling the Philippines in just 3 days! From Manila to Davao! I'm supposed to feel envious, I am! I wanted to try it, never mind my motion sickness.

But there are problems today, there are things that's making feel disappointed, my dear diary, don't ask me to detail everything, I feel sad really..

Now, I'm gonna tell myself that what's bothering me now will pass... everything would gonna alright...

I'll be just fine..

Memo: April 27. 14

memo: 4.23.14

4.21.14 selfie

I was on leave today because some of my family members are here, my mom and my other brothers, they have some sorta business transaction to make.. and while waiting to get things settled, we decided to go somewhere... I really don't know where to take them.. Metro Manila is just fine but I can't think of any nice place to visit.. don't misinterpret me... Philippines is a beautiful country, its more fun in the Philippines right??? It's just that, we can't get ourselves go too far around Manila..

Anyway, here's yours truly today.. should i say yesterday? Its past 12am

Captions

1. Emoterang frog!
2. Such a bad posture.. but the view is beautiful! Just dont mind me.
3. The turtle (or tortoise) is so lovable. I want it!

I'm so Tamad to Work

This is illegal.. its office hours pa... ang tamad ko lang kase talaga... maybe this is because I was in a long vacation.. but I can't get enough of it and I need more!.. and my boss was being nice to me this morning.... madalas naman syang maging nice kapag nasesense nyang naiinis ako... pano pa ako magreresign?? Haha

Err.. honestly.. There are people whom I dont want to be extra nice to me kase medyo gullible ako.. haha.. I'm finding it hard refuse on things that someone is asking me to kapag nice sya sakin.. (parang uto uto lang)..... pero hindi dapat  ganon..

ang tamad ko lang talaga! At hindi pa ako pinapansin.. haha

The No Crying Game

Two of my friends and I watched two sad movies today, and I set rules to myself.. I'm not gonna cry in front of  them... Crying in sad movies is not new to me (kahit nga hindi nakakaiyak, naiiyak ako! Loser!).. but of course only when I'm by myself... I don't want anyone see my tears falling down.. I'm such a crybaby! Haha

But I can say I tried my very best with this one, but I couldn't help it, one straight drop of tears fell and maybe a cup of tears is about to let go but I stopped it! Yey! But in return, I felt that pain in my throat because I was trying to resist it.

 "Wedding Dress" is a story of a mother and her daughter who save the best moment of their lives together.. How could you not cry when a mother try to hide to her one and only young daughter that she's about to die, she would act that everything is normal though she's really in pain, she would have to endure that moment her child told her that she didn't need her in life.. How could you not cry when a little girl finds out that her mom is dying but she couldn't let her know that she knew it already, she would have to pretend that everything is just fine..  just watch it if you want to relate with me why I lose this No Crying Game.. For me the lesson of this movie is to make the people you love feel  that you love them because you don't know when they will be taken away from you and you'll never get the chance to make them feel it.

Next movie that made me teary eyed today is "The Love Phobia".. at first I found it a bit boring. The girl is kinda weird at first but that didn't stop the boy to get amused.. Anyway, you'll know the reason why she acts differently at near ending part.. Not really good at narration (mali mali pa ata grammar ko, antok na kase ako), so  you better watch it.

That's all folks!

Memo: 4.19.14

My Good Friday

Because I can't let myself spoil in my room today just like yesterday (because i have 4 days off straight due to the holyweek), I decided to feel the air and get myself burned by the summer sun.. Yes, it was so hot today. And since I can't get  my self away from the city, so I had a stroll just around Metro Manila(because I wasn't able  to book a flight and my excuses are not valid so I hated myself, I have to deal with my boredom). . I can't get expensive, so I'll go cheap.. hahaha

I asked my friend to accompany me with my itinerary today.. I was thinking of going to Intramuros, I never been there.. I told her to meet me halfway.. So, our meeting place is the Rizal Park (Luneta Park), hehe.. I got there sometime in 2010 with some of my family members when we cross over from Taft going to our main destination, the Manila Ocean Park.

Tadan! The Rizal park! Just like Dora The Explorer, I was here! For some average people, they wouldn't go there.. They said, it's where the housemaids and poor people go during their day off..  its the lovers rendezvous, its the probinsyana's tambayan (ano naman? Probinsyana naman talaga ako!).. they find it cheap! That was also my thinking before, but now I'm matured enough... so what???!! I'm not there to watch the lovers publicly displaying their affection, I hate that scene too, but I don't give a damn care(palibhasa loveless.. haha)

Anyway, aside from the people having their moments which I don't really mind.. I love to see the old monuments, structure and statue of remarkable people... Like I'm being back to my history subject.

 

Then we had a stopped at Chinese Park just nearby.. It wasn't really that bad... It's a way much better view than the four corner of my dull room. It's just too crowded and needs a bit of enhancement and maintenance.

Finally..its the Intramuros! I was amazed how could these houses, offices and churches could stand firmly over the years.. 

It's nice there.. as I was saying the old preserved buildings are beautiful.. it's a nice spot to get your self a walk if you have nowhere to go in Manila and feel like you are reading back your "HEKASI" subject thru your own eyes.

After that tiring stroll.. we had a quick walk at Mckinley hill, The fort.. Actually, we're a bit lost.. haha.. as if we are truly a stranger in here.. No MRT today, so we took jeepneys, buses and taxi just to reach  Fort Bonifacio, Global City from Manila.. Anyway, I think Global City is much progressive and organized than Manila, but the latter had preserve Philippines historical site.

Its the Venice Piazza.

That's it..I've been really exhausted walking from here and there... plus the extreme heat of the sun.. But I had a great day!

Good night!

Good morning Good Friday!

Its Holyweek and today's Good Friday is being observed by our Christian's brothers and sisters.

Anyway, is it also good for me?

Yesterday, I had a slight headache...maybe because I overdid doing nothing... and i don't wanna say I hated myself for not getting myself anywhere, that I wasted my time... I'm so overfed saying that too (pero sinasabi ko pa rin) hahaha... iniisip ko na lang hindi pa ngayon ang tamang panahon.. (haha.. kinocomfort ang sarili)..

It's almost 9am when I woke up.. I got thrilled with my friend's video of her skydiving experience at Dubai.... I'm so jealous!!!!! Hahaha.. I wanna try it, God, please let me.. I'm not really afraid of heights, I'm afraid of lizards.. haha.. Dubai is really a beautiful place.. it was always my dream to get there even before I graduated... Somebody offered me possible job opportunity there after taking the board exam, but I'm not brave enough to jump into it inexperienced.

 Few weeks ago, I asked this friend (the one who sky dived) if she could entertain me  if I'll visit Dubai, and she said yes!... I really wish I could visit... andun pa kaya sya pag nangyari yun? Haha

My mom called a while ago.. she said, why am I still sleeping.. ang taas na ng araw! Sabi ko na lanf I deserved this! I need a break! Haha

Pero sige na nga babangon na ako. Hehe..

Good Friday!

drama

Just some drama before I sleep:

No one see's your drama, no one feels it... life is not a movie as what i always tell you, not like everyone would sympathize at you.. that they would wish you'll gonna make it... when you cry your heart out there, no one would say , stop it, no one would tell everything's gonna be alright... you have yourself when everybody would turn their back on you... when they get tired of you, when people break their promises, you shouldn't blame them, you shouldn't put all of your trust in the very first place anyway.. I don't mean to say you should be sad about life... but its okay if you're lonely now, if you're alone, you must... you should learn being just by yourself, everybody would leave you in the end... i don't intend to put you down, i want you to be happy, swear i really do... but i want that happiness comes from your deepest... not from anyone... coz if you do and they'll forget you, you'll be miserable again... forgive the people who couldn't give you what you want, they have their own life and its not yours to control.. i dont want to stop you from loving the people you love... but if they don't need your love, just keep it inside your heart... just love them from afar, someday it will be gone, time heals... i want you to be strong, i want you to be brave.. i want you to listen to me... coz when when you have no one, you got me.

15th of April 2014

Today: Busy, Pay Day, Leave approved,  hungry, stuffed afterwards, wish I could turn back time, missed, laugh out loud, disappointed, hopeful, doubtful, wishful thinking, I can and I will, ..... just fine!  

Just Another Ordinary Sunday

How was your  Sunday?

I've been extra lazy today though I cooked something for breakfast this morning..  I spent my time just playing that game I was playing last night, watched videos on the YouTube...

Mr. Assimo of Bubble Gang had made me laugh out loud today..

I even had a quick watched of the korean movie "the beast and the beauty"  I've watched it already before... that's why I ended up sleeping while its still rolling on my phone..

Watched music videos and Taylor Swift's "Ours" had caught my attention... I'm not really her fan.. but since I found her video funny and cute, i posted it in my facebook account.

Watched Meteor Garden again... then a friend interrupted it, had a good laugh chatting with him, I don't know if he's serious about the things he told me.. maybe he's really not, but he's funny anyway..

Then another friend asked me out for dinner... I hesitated at first because I'm too lazy to get myself fixed... but because I have nothing to eat for dinner, so I go... so here's a selfie of me today... haha... (not again)

Good night!

drop dead bored part 2

Tsk tsk tsk!! HAHA... Stage 5 na ata yung sakit ko... last na to... last na talaga to para sa araw na to.. hahaha.. quota na ako!! Alam ko nakakairita na..

But appropriate or not to post stuff like this, I don't really mind...

May sense naman to e... meron nga ba? Haha.. its almost 10pm.. who wants some 2-hours-before-midnight-snack??!!   Brownies unlimited here at walang kamatayang C2... I had an early dinner awhile ago, kaya gutom na ako..

And I think I deserve something sweet before my day ends.. just dont mind the narcissist side of me..

Sweet night! Hahaha..

Drop Dead Bored!

I got home an hour ago and I was feeling bored.. so my selfie-ing disorder got the chance to attack me.. and I couldn't fight it back.. hahaha... I'm sorry.... but maybe there's no point in holding it back if it could save me from this world deafening silence.. hahaha.. so to my phone's camera, to this game for the dork, and my music... Thank you so much!!!

I can't sleep!

I'm all set to dreamland but I'm a bit feeling pissed off! And I can't sleep well! Today's been hectic but that's not what disturbing me.. I was handling things at place earlier this day, I was late for work, I overslept, I lost my important files in my computer I had to call our I.T, and he fixed it anyway... My boss didn't sign and questioned one of our purchase request and startled me to get my report done.... but that didn't ruin my day... and i was amazed that I was feeling fine despite everything... not until later this afternoon... I was a bit annoyed with my officemates for reason i should not tell.. yeah, it was actually nothing, its no big deal... but I hated it...  Indeed, words are weightless but it could bring a load of disappointment.. sometimes, your enemies' sharp words couldn't bring you down, but your friend's could.. I know I shouldn't be thinking about it... and I'll stop thinking about it..

Some things are just needed to be accepted.. and it will set us free...

I'm better now I could sleep.

GOOD NIGHT!

Its April 9!!

I'm going blank.. today was just nothing.. I stayed in bed most of the time... I know tomorrow I'm gonna be dead.. haha.. I mean, the cost report, it will be presented on Saturday and I'm not halfway there yet... at baka ako pa ang magreport!!! Wahhh.. I'm gonna die... chos lang!!  Last year at this very day, I brought my work home... but today I didn't.. I will not, i brought some papers but I'm not working on it.. just had a quick glance then back to sleep.. bahala na bukas!

 Because I was dying of boredom at mapapanis na laway ko, my brother's been out since last night... wala akong makausap... just the 4 corners of my room parang tanga.. hahaha... but i don't hate it.. ayos lang ako! Rest day ko to!

I messaged my friends, my sister and my mom, paramdam din pag my time ang drama ko!... wala lang ginulo ko lang sila...

Maybe I'm extra makulit today.. I just wanna make some of these people  know that I remember them.. I hope I didn't irritate them.. yung iba di man lang ako nireplayan!  Haha

I was at my room the whole day.. i just went out to bring my dirty clothes at my favorite laundry shop, that "feeling close guy" there told me, my eyes are beautiful! Haha... they said, when you are being flattered, do not interrupt... but I think he's not flattering me, he's just making "bola" me.. I answered him, "hmp, gusto mo lang keep the change e!"..  haha.. i don't think its beautiful, maybe its swollen because I'm oversleeping ..

Hayst... at kapag bored ako... eto ang outcome... oh my! My selfie disorder is getting worst

 (Patawarin na natin sya.. hehe)

and there's always something about april 9... maybe April is my favorite month too.. that's it..

Good night my dear diary!!

Its holiday!!!

Its araw ng kagitingan and its a holiday!! I'm loving it... but I'm torn between the thought of , I would sleep all day and I wish I'm not wasting this day i'm supposed to be somewhere else..

I woke up, my head ached.. I think this stiff neck is getting worse.. O, Natre/Nadre of Shutter(whatever!) get off there! Haha

I had lots of dream last night, I forgot some...

I got my new passport ..I had it delivered in our site office last week...  i had it rushed! Because I'm dying to be out of the country this month.. remember that one moment I said I want to travel alone? ... i really want to try it .. you know a bit of soul searching (haha.. ang arte!).. but my mom wont let me travel alone... but  i know she wouldn't stop me if I'll be brave enough to go... i know from deep inside her, she wants me to be brave.. i want it too! But in traveling alone, you should do a lot of researching to that place your eyeing... And i haven't yet.. i hate myself for that!!

Don't get me wrong I want to travel with some friends too... i know that would be fun, unfortunately I got no friends.. haha.. i mean my few friends have no interests like mine, tapos yung iba mahihirap! Hahaha.. joke lang... they have other priorities in life...  maybe this is what i get in being introvert, in not socializing, I get to meet limited people.. okay lang! Hehe

I'm so sad about this! Kawawa naman ako.. haha

So what's for today?? EWAN.... I'm hungry... I didn't eat heavy dinner last night, I'm too lazy to cook.. but now since my tummy is going wild, I will.

Good morning!

I'll Have To Say It In A Song

This day has been  long and rough... but I don't want to stay at the office after six, (yes, not anymore!) so I had to leave! See how as if a whirlwind hit my table! Swear I didn't want it like that, I just can't help it.  I left it that way coz I was in a rush.

Everybody's out early today because tomorrow is a holiday.. yep, it was a bit creepy staying late there, about 20 meters below the ground! And this glass window that divides my department to my boss' is kinda scary, its as if someone would suddenly show up!! So I packed up and ran! (Exaggerated though).

Anyway, when I was on my way out,  one of my officemates was still there, her seat is a little far from mine that's  why I thought no one was there.. I'm a bit guilty leaving her there, I know how it feels to be just by yourself in that forsaken place (haha.. exaggerated nanaman ako sa forsaken!).. Anyway, I said goodbye to her, I think she's used to it.

Lets get back to me getting busy the whole day... like which is which first.. (madalas naman akong ganon.. haha).. but dont worry I'm learning to handle things well (almost well! Haha).. maybe its better that way... I would rather get myself busy than just do nothing.. That is such a pain in the head.. both does, but doing nothing is worst.

Honestly, I'm not that diligent too.. (ang tamad ko kaya!).. I just don't want to be irresponsible... I don't want to be workaholic either, I just need to get things done... I hate it when someone would tell me "ang sipag naman"! I'm just doing my job! And I'm not trying to impress my boss or anyone for doing so... I just wanna feel fine about myself capable of doing something..

Maybe sometimes I'm overdoing it... maybe.. but I'm not thinking about it too much... whatever it takes! I'm fine...

And despite my being busy.. there are still reasons that would make me pause and breath for a while in the middle of my messy  table! Music! Good thing its not prohibited in the office.. (though sometimes I couldn't hear my boss calling me because of my earphone.. he's not firing me yet. Haha)

Anyway this old song I've been playing all over again today.. its so light and corny! Haha.. But I found it relaxing..

I've no specific kind of music, I used to love alternative or songs that are not popular to anyone... but now I'm loving everything....as long it makes sense to me... (sign of aging ata! Haha)... indeed, music could touch our soul, could heal what is being broken, could express the things that are left unsaid... just like what these great men said:

that's all for tonight! (Yung title wala masyadong connection sa post ko.. hayaan nyo na).

4.6.14

What I like about being at other house is that you are treated nicely.. I had an overnight stay at my friend's new place...  medyo malayo nga lang...  and my appetite is good kapag nakikain sa ibang bahay haha.. and i enjoyed my breakfast today.. thanks sa host.

And for letting me borrow this clothes... pati na rin sa sobrang iksing shorts.. hahaha.. ( lam namang conservative ako e. Haha)

What's on your Instagram??

This is my Instagram account with 209 posts up to date..  I have few followers here and that makes me a bit confident to post anything goes... 

Just like my blogger account, I said a lot here though not thru words but more of pictures...  here are 25 random pictures out of that 209 posts that you'll see in my account.

1.) 60 weeks ago: my first post..  a tree at the nearby save more in my place.. 

2.) 49 weeks ago: stressed and relieved

3.) 49 weeks ago: Failed photography

4.) 49 weeks ago:  Enchanted

5.) 57 weeks ago: Escape 

       

                           6.)  49 weeks ago: Mad!

                      7.)  26 weeks ago: Memories

                 8.) 19 weeks ago: closer to the sky

9.) 49 weeks ago: Letting go of where you used to.

                            10.) 14 weeks ago: home

           11.) 20 weeks ago:  moon and the project

12.) 11 weeks ago: horror

13.) 41 weeks ago: Job

14.) 41 weeks ago: why o why can't I?

15.) 48 weeks ago: Runaway at not so far away

16.) 42 weeks ago:  When stupidity is beautiful

17.) 47 weeks ago: the best mom

18.) 49 weeks ago: scenery

19.) 33 weeks: simple pleasure

20.) 9 weeks ago: modesty and what should be.

21.) 45 weeks ago: discovery and I think it tastes alcohol 

22.) 25 weeks ago: My everyday

23.) 32 weeks ago: sweet thing

24.) 49 weeks ago: One and only sister

25.) 16 weeks ago: I love the rain