30Sept14

TODAY:

A bit busy.. pero okay lang... wala na akong masabi. Haha

WHAT'S THE HAPPIEST THING HAPPENED TODAY:
I was paying my bills at SM Makati when I accidentally met my friend, my x roommate... Ang saya lang pala sa pakiramdam pag nakikita mo yung mga taong matagal mo ng di nakikita.. had a great laugh with her and her husband.. sila rin pala nagkatuluyan.. hehe.. I've witnessed their lovestory during our college days.

29Sept14

TODAY:

The picture says it all. After work, dinner with marj, lee and margaux, dessert at DQ, then it rained, then i'm home... ate my chocolate cake....Oh, the milk challenge, haven't started it yet.

REMINDER TO SELF: Stop feeling guilty...

UNSAID WORDS TO SOMEONE: I love you kenshin!!!! Haha..Don't you know you're in my wall paper??  its truly unsaid because he's only a fictional character. Hehe

WHAT'S THE HAPPIEST THING HAPPENED TODAY:
Meron ba? Haha.. Being with my friends.. laughed out loud.

28Sept14

TODAY:
I've been busy today.. I did a little fixing of these stuffs..Kelangang magbawas na mga kalat... Then I realized that I've been keeping so many unwanted things.. ganon kase ako, diko tinatapon yung mga bagay na feeling ko kakailanganin ko pa... like my payslips, my billing statements, used plane tickets, itineraries, maps, receips at kung anu ano pa... old id's including my highschool id.. ewan bat diko tinatapon. I had lots of planners, ..and assorted notebooks too... i just love collecting them.. yung iba bigay lang saken, yung iba murdered ko na, yung iba diko naman nagagamit... wala na masyadong time magsulat, dito na lang sa blogger... I know someday, i'll be using them..

At dahil diko alam pano sisimulan ang pag-aayos.. I needed a selfie. Ahaha... alam ko, para sa iba maiirita sila kaseselfie ng ibang tao.. ako rin naman e.. but this page is mine! I I take a lot of selfie before I'll look old na.. at least I have pictures to look back.

I defrosted our refrigerator... at dito ko pala magagamit yung mga kapapelan.. haha... pampunas ng sahig!

I bought Red Ribbon's Triple Chocolate Cake.. and Milk... yah! I hate it but I need it... it's another challenge.. hehe.. I've been staring at the Milk section, I don't have any idea which would taste good... wala naman ata... all kinds of fresh milk don't appeal to me that much..

Got my laundry and sent another batch.. Had Foot Spa.

I love this app, songs with yrics kaso wala na sa play store.. this line is sooo sweet! Hehe

REMINDER TO SELF: Be grateful and strive to be happy.

27Sept14

TODAY:

Finally, after almost two months, my alarm clock woke me up! Diba nga kase nagigising ako lagi ng maaga...mas nauuna pa ako sa alarm.
Tapos busy sa office kase dami nanaman for estimates... grrr... we're taking over fit out works kase... tapos may bagong project na pinapaestimate..... ayun.. busy dapat pero wala naman akong ginagawa hahaha.. sumasakit lang ang ulo ko.. I thank God that my Q.S. is doing a good job at masipag naman.. pwede na nga nya akong palitan e.. ahahaha...

Okay naman sana ang araw ko.. kaso somebody ruined it.. I met Mr. A  again,  ang kulit lang kase..  since ala naman ako magawa and baka kelangan may mapasaya akong tao... baka masaya sya pag nakita ako... hahaha.. o e d may napasaya ako! Tsaka feelingera na kung feelingera ako pero dati ko pang sinasabi sa kanya na hanggang friends lang kami... makapal na yung face ko pero mabuti ng ang malinaw..  ayun nga , kaso medyo somobra sya kanina kaya nainis, nairita at nabad trip ako.. iniwan ko nga! I dont wanna see him ever again!!  Di na ako nagsisisi na minsan feeling ko ang mean ko sa kanya.. he deserved it! Nakakainis!

Pero kahit badtrip ako.. nakuha ko pa rin magselfie..! Haha...

25Sept14

Today:

Obviously, dina nagtatampo sa akin si Lee... we watched Ruroni Kenshin: Legend End.. I enjoyed it and he did not. Haha.. I've expected that, its not his kind of movie.

HAPPIEST THING HAPPENED TODAY:
Seeing my Kenshin Baby!! Haha

24Sept14

TODAY:
 10:19am
Nagtatampo pa rin si lee sa akin.. di ko lang sya nasamahan kahapon, I've changed na raw. Hehe... sabi ko I'm not.. nagbago na lahat ng tao sa mundo, ako lang ata ang hirap na hirap magbago... hehe.. I think people don't really change... they just found out who they really are, what they really want.. yung mga ganon... yung iba naman.. baka lumalabas lang yung totoong kulay.. hehe.. wala akong magawa noh? Oras ng trabaho ginagawa ko to. Hehe

12:17 pm

I don't really feel good pag may nagtatampo sa aken, kahit may dahilan ako... alam ko I can't please everyone at the same time.... wala lang.. but at some point of it,  pag may nagtatampo sayo ibig sabihin importante ka rin sa kanila... yun na lang iniisip ko then I will make bawi na lang.. hehe...  

1:34 pm

It's 24th pala! Showing na si Kenshin Baby! Haha

3:58pm
 Done eating arrozcaldo for our merienda! Alhamdullillah...

4:58pm
Kanina ko pa gustong umuwi kaso nagpapahintay si Lee.. e dahil kelangan ko palang bumawi kaya kahit ang sakit na sa mata ang opisinang to hehehe.. maghihintay ako.

5:49pm
Paid my credit card bill at  Sm Makati.. Lee changed his mind... marami pa raw syang gagawin..

9:15pm
Just got home.. Papanuorin ko sana si Kenshin baby kaso sold out na.. nakakaheartbroken naman haha...  I met margaux... at nagkita rin kami ni maam lileth.. we had dinner together... bought new shades... bought new Iron.. nawiwili na ako sa kapapasok ng office na gusot ang uniform.. haha.. Margaux and me... with our new Sunglasses and my funny face! Haha

10:56pm
Ang sipag ko magsulat today.. haha.. Good night!!

REMINDER TO SELF: Stop thinking your self as someone not worth of anything coz you're absolutely not.. trust me you're not! You will only lose your worth when you let anyone makes you feel so... I know you've got few people you hold on to and you don't need the rest to give you compliment and appreciation...but sometimes those people you've known forever don't see things the way you do...but you shouldn't allow yourself to get stuck.... cheer up no matter what!

WHAT'S THE HAPPIEST THING HAPPENED TODAY: Hindi ko alam.. siguro yung arrozcaldo! Hehe

LESSON FOR TODAY:
Chicken soup story 22: "Being successful is doing what makes you happy..Life is too short and uncertain to do anything else."

LETTER TO SOULMATE: How are you?  Are we gonna see other?? You know I'm  not expecting you to be perfect....why would I? when I maybe the worst person you'll ever met in your entire life.. I'm not even asking for us to stay together for the rest of our lives, I just wanna know you, even for a day, that's not too much right? Then I could keep you in my heart for as long as I can... who know's that one moment I wish I am with you is something I could say as one of the the best moment I had in my life... :)

23August14

TODAY:

The typical me would say NO to this, yung magjogging! Haha... I'm so not into physical activities.. Para maiba naman, I said yes to this invitation.. I had fun, I got exhausted running.. tumakbo ba ako?? Pwede na rin yung isang round na takbo lakad.. haha... we played badminton... I missed doing that... PE  nung college pa ata ako huling naglaro... nag enjoy ako.. maybe that's my happiest moment today.. haha... then dinner after kase sobrang nagutom ako.. okay rin pala yung ganon.. kaso nga lang nagtatampo ata si Lee saken...

Sige.. good night! Madami pa akong gustong sabihin kaso late na pala.

21Sept14

TODAY:
Its my typical Sunday.. went to Sm Mall of Asia with my brother... dahil minsan lang magtagpo yung off namin.. I want to watch Maze Runner kaso napanuod na raw nya... so we watched this Pinoy horror movie, Maria Leonora Teresa.... okay lang, its nice to scream.. haha.... then a little shopping..grocery.. and tambay lang.

WHAT'S THE HAPPIEST THING HAPPENED TODAY:
The fireworks..it wasn't really extravagant but it brought out the kid in me... with background music of Cold Play's Yellow.... it made me happy... i felt it in my heart.. chos!!

20Sept14

TODAY:
I felt sleepy the whole day... I didn't work too hard.. Music tripping.. you tube and the sort.. tinatamad ako.. Merienda time with Margaux and Lee, Timezone with Margaux... dinner... tsismax... and then home!

REMINDER TO SELF: It's okay to have few good friends.. rather than having many fake friends...

UNSAID TO SOMEONE: Yah, I guess your way is working, better things left unknown, left unsaid, left uncertain, just let it pass..... you know what, I still hate you really... maybe I'll stop hating you when I stop caring about you too... and I can't wait for that day to arrive...swear, I don't.wanna hate you.. i will just laugh at all of this when its finally over.... in time.


WHAT'S THE HAPPIEST THING HAPPENED TODAY:
Called back my mom when I wasn't able to answer her call.... and they're doing fine.

LETTER TO SOULMATE: Good night.. sleep well

19Sept14

TODAY:

I've got no idea that Typhoon Mario is kinda ravaging some areas of Metro Manila, haven't watching the news. I've realized that when my mom, my sister and my father were texting and calling me this morning checking us.

It was raining heavily this morning when I went out of my room, I hailed a lot of taxi, but when not occupied, they are refusing to go Makati.. So, I had to take a tricycle and a jeepney just to get into the office... I was a little devastated too, kasi basang basa ako! Suspended naman pala yung pasok sa head office tsaka sa ibang projects...

I was a little resentful, I should have not reported na lang sana... but when I went home after lunch... I honestly enjoyed the rain... don't get me wrong, maybe other part of Manila is flooded, but not in Makati, I walked slowly, feeling the rain, bottom part of my jeans was already wet, but I don't really mind.  For that sudden moment, I was happy... ewan, feeling ko kase, the rain sympathized with me, it washes away my worries, feeling ko broken hearted yung kalangitan, at hindi pala ako nag-iisa.. hahaha.. ang corny ko nanaman dun!

I reached home around 2pm.. I ate some salad then  in my bed I stayed.. I was about to blog how I enjoyed the rain, kahit nahirapan akong sumakay... kaso nakatulog ako.. haha! I woke up almost 8pm, I thought Saturday na! That was a carefree sleep, parang ang tagal ko ng di natutulog ng mahimbing... I want to sleep more but I needed to prepare something for dinner...

Now I'm stuffed and keep on repeating this song, "Not pretty Enough". Spare me this selfie!

WHAT'S THE HAPPIEST THING HAPPENED TODAY:
Work was suspended, I walked into the rain feeling like a child again.. If only I'm not carrying my bag and I wouldn't look like I'm crazy, I'd walk without umbrella.

LESSON FOR TODAY:
Chiken Soup Story 17: Wanting something is sometimes more fun than having that something.
Story 18: The author said: They've got nothing but were happy, I had everything they didn't have but I was miserable. This line, you know what it means.

NOTE TO SELF:
 People have different ways of getting over of things and it's non of your business how they will do it.... even if you're against it.

LETTER TO SOULMATE:
I'm just wondering. Some were gifted with someone to love and be loved... but why its too easy for them to cheat and be not loyal... they fall out of love so easily... I think I'm a way far from being like that.. but I am not blessed to have that someone, or to have you... or maybe not now, or maybe I lost you already even before it started. I.don't know who you really are... but I wish you do exist... we should exist. Good night!

18Sept14

TODAY:

7:35am
Pumasok ako, gusot yung uniform ko.. the iron didn't work.. sira na ata! I'm expecting my legs to ache later, naslide kase ako.. pero sana wag. I didn't sleep well, that moment you felt you're going to die, what if I'll never wake up...? I know, its morbid.. pero there were really moments at night I felt that way.. who knows? death comes unexpectedly to everyone at anytime. But the good thing was, pag nagigising ako kinabukasan.. I could say thanks for this  another day, mas nagiging grateful ako.. narerealize ko na life is too short and could end anytime para seryosohin ang nga bagay bagay... indeed, we should treat each day as our last.... do what we want to do, say what we want to say.

9:35pm
Here comes my leg, masakit na nga! Anyway, roamed around at SM Makati with Lee, bought a gift for Elsie's baby, though I  can't attend.

NOTE TO SELF: Keep myself reminded that it's okay to feel bad at some people sometimes and I must not put all the blame in me.. okay lang yun, it only means na tao rin ako, marunong makaramdam... but I must not make it a habit... If people couldn't accept me at my worst, they don't deserve the best of me either.

WHAT'S THE HAPPIEST THING HAPPENED TODAY: That moment I started eating my dinner with lee ay Cabalen.. busog much!

LETTER TO SOULMATE: Hey, how are you there? How are you doing? I know we're been missing a lot of each other's whereabouts.. its okay, someday when we meet, we'll talk about it.. so let's take time doing what we ought to do now.. let's catch up someday. And if in case we'll never ever get the chance to meet, i'll be sad but I know its God's will. There got to be reasons... I won't settle for someone not you, I'll be fine alone rather than be with someone who doesn't love me back or vice versa.... So, I hope you loved me too. ;)

17Sept14

Activities:
Work.. work.. work
Dinner with madam and margaux..

Note to Self: I'm too sleepy to say something for myself.

What made you the happiest today: We've booked a tour .. Just nearby ..

The Facebook Tag Games

I was tagged by a friend to post 20 things about yourself but I'm kinda sick of posting stuff like that here in blogger though... but not in facebook where a lot of them could read.... as if they will be interested.. but if I'll have to do it.. it would be these:

1. Introvert... I hate parties , I'm a wallflower.
2. I love travelling... minsan pinangarap kong maging flight attendant, but I don't think I'll be qualified. Haha... I don't even know how to entertain people.
3. I'm an engineer by profession, but what if I became a journalist or a writer?? Parang yun yung gusto ko....
4. Oo engineer ako, but I'm poor with numbers, mamamatay ako pag walang calculator. Haha
5. I love kittens... I'll be really happy having one kaso bawal sa boarding house.. baka madeads lang.
6. I love people with sense of humor, kase ang sama ng sense of humor ko.
7. I have few friends, mga ten. Haha
8. I honestly don't know how I looked like.
9. I feel good when I make someone happy, para kasing imposibleng magawa ko...
10. I love knowing different people's stories...I'm not excellent at giving advice  but I'm a good listener..
12. I don't look like I'm interested in love but I'm always brokenhearted. Haha
13. I do fall in love in fictional characters... like Kenshin of Samurai X.. haha
14. Maybe soulmates aren't real, I just wanna believe they do... baduy kase ako.. tingin ko magiging old maid ako. Haha!
15. I love the rain... the sky.. the moon.. the stars...
16. People change, pero ako.. hindi ata.. haha
17. I looked so malnourished.. I hate vegetables.. Pero  pag gusto ko ang food, matakaw ako.
18. For the record, matampuhin talaga ako.. haha.. diko lang masyado pinapahalata.
19. I love taking a lot of pictures, I love saving memories, but I'm bad at photography.. I have a 2 year old dslr camera.... na hanggang ngayon diko alam pano gamitin.
20. I'm stuck and indecisive..... I'm still in quest for something I don't know. Madrama ako.

16Sept14

ACTIVITIES: same same

LESSON FOR THE DAY:
chicken soup story 12:
"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we have." - FK

WORDS UNSAID TO ANYONE: Don't listen to me when I'm hurt, I say so much of nonsense.

WHAT MADE YOU HAPPIEST TODAY: I saw this guy that looks like my kenshin baby.. haha

REMINDERS TO SELF: its okay to feel mad sometimes, its being human.

LETTER TO SOULMATE: they would think I'm crazy for writing letters to someone who maybe not really existing... they won't know anyway... this is our secret.. just between us.. i'll be right here, wherever you maybe, whoever you are, I'm waiting patiently.... even if takes a lifetime.

15Sept14

ACTIVITIES:
Just had a rainy morning so I took the cab... worked on my cost report. Started watching "How to train your dragon2" on my lunch break. Dinner with lee and margaux. Now there's a lizard across our door.. I tried to.scare it away but its not even reacting..

LESSON FOR TODAY:
Chicken Soup
Story 8: Treasure your friends.. Do not forget them.
Story 9: Not because you had a tragic past, it will recur all over again, some things change..
Story 10: Patience is still a virtue!
Story 11: Happiness is also.found in simple blessings.


WHAT MADE YOU HAPPIEST TODAY:  I don't know, still.confuse between these things--getting my report done or overcoming the teasing of my officemates because I got my hair a rebond treatment or the loud laugh I had with jay r, lee and margaux.. just that.

WORDS LEFT UNSAID TO ANYONE: I hope you don't hate me that much.

LETTER TO SOULMATE: Hey, I think I'll start writing letters to you again. I don't know where you are now or maybe you dont really exist.... I just want to believe you do exist and I'll be seeing you somehow....then you can read my letters and you'll know I've been thinking of you even before you came... but for now here's my good night!

14Sept14

Activity:

Spending my Sunday at my friend's place.. she cooked arrozcaldo and I loved it... but I hate my pimples.. obviously invading my face! Haha

I love her mirror too.. wahaha

Phone calls with my mom and my sister.... add that one from A.

Had our hair fixed... and I think that was wrong timing because it took like forever... it was late and raining when its done..

Chicken soup
Story 5: Paint away the past and look forward on  a beautiful future
Story 6: I'm lucky to have my parents.
Story 7: Everyday might not be good but there's something good in everyday

I am thinking of a new format for my daily blog.. like I have to fill up... activities, target for the day, lesson of the day, what made me happiest that day, reminders to self, words unsaid for anyone and letters to my soulmate! Hahaha.. but isn't that too long??? Let's give it a try... but for now, that would be all! Good night!

T.G.I.S!

Yes.. Thank God its Saturday!

Why did I say so? Sometimes, that's the problem...  I was blinded with my life complains...  I was being ungrateful... I'm being mean,  I even hated myself, I say things that I don't suppose to say... stuff like that... I forgot that there are too many things I should appreciate...I just have to acknowledge them... I must keep reminding myself that I may never have everything I want, I may never do what I love or whom and where  I wanna be with, I'll be okay...maybe not today but for the mean time I've got everything I need and I should be thankful.

The Friday Group!

One of friends, Mac, call us the The Friday Group... hehe... busog much!

Reading chicken soup for the soul.

Lesson:
Story 1: Cherishing each moment of your life
Story 2: Stop complaining as much as possible!
Story 3: For the things I've lost, it will resurface eventually.. because if its really something I need, I know God will bring it back to me.
Story 4: Happiness is an attitude.

That would be all for tonight! GOOD NIGHT!

11Sept14

7:38am

I'm late at work and I'm sooo sleepy nanaman! Woke up past 3am... I'm not sure if I slept back... I don't know.if those I had in my mind a while ago was just a dream or I'm just thinking (past 3am to before 6am)... pero medyo weird kaya baka panaginip nga..

8:15am

Meeting meetingan.. its getting really lonely here..

9:37am

Dahil bago yung strap ng ID namin.. I'm gonna wear it, kahit ngayong araw lang. Hahha

10:05am
Which is which?? Cost report? Petty cash replenishment? Labor cost?? Billing recon? Other matters?? Obviously, busy nanaman.. kapag di ko alam ang uunahin... nagbablog na lang ako..haha.. anyway, i think I owe myself a sorry... i've been feeling down lately, forgot my rules.. I must not let anything, anyone makes me feel bad, or unworthy, nagkamali ako...  anything that puts me down doesn't deserve anything from me as well!! Alam ko inconsistent ako, sino bang hindi?? Basta...

2:59pm
We filled up something indicating your age... ang hirap pala ilagay yung 30.. nyahahaha... kelangan kong maovercome to!

4:02pm
Chichirya time with lee... sabi ko librehin nya ako.. haha.. glad andito pa si lee nauubos na mga friends ko dito.... though I can't tell him everything and he is always bullying me,  I'm still thankful na anjan lang xa... I could laugh out loud with his presence..

6:56pm

At Power Books... because I don't wanna go home yet. And Lee showed me this book, may ganto pala.. pathetic! Haha... maybe I'll get almost perfect of the 365..

8:15pm
I'm home! And I bought a book, ofcourse not the one above, I wont spend money for that malaman lang ang dahilan bat single ako..hehe.. I knew already and I don't really care (weh? I bet that's your reaction..haha) ... just got one Chicken Soup for the Soul.... yep, I need some uplifting words of wisdom.. hehe...

10:23pm

Done reading story no. 1.
And now, its time to sleep... First, I must release anything that bothers me... admit that I was foolish, I was wrong... but so what??? Forget it! Coz I'm okay here, really... ;)... I'm just human, I get mad, I get unreasonable, I care too much for something to some are nothing, sometimes I realized things too late.... haha... I'm so wrong I know... but I'm alright..

Good night!!! Sleep well..

10Sept14

I'm supposed to be busy today, but look what I was doing during work... writing this in a scratch paper..  wala lang, I dont wanna work. Hehe... just words left unsaid, or maybe it should be better that way, unsaid... what am I gonna do with it?? Wala.. put it in a bottle, throw it in the sea, (message in a bottle lang ang peg), or burn it, maybe it could reach heaven, hahaha.. ang baduy ko talaga!!

Tapos uwian na.. tambay sa staffhouse nila lee, I know I must not enter at male's quarters, kaso ang tagal magprepare ni lee, pinapatuloy nya ako... wahaha.. secret lang to.. bawal to.. this photo was sometime last week.

Tapos dinner at Red Kimono with Lee and Marj... Don't want to post a picture of me today.. i looked terrible.. haha.. I know looked like that all the time.. haha.. mas worst lang today.

Read an article about causes of early morning awakenings.... I wanna know the reason bat ang aga aga kong nagigising... I know when I'm having a deep and nice sleep when my alarm clock is responsible for my waking up... pero this few weeks was horrible (horrible pang nalalaman.). I wish I'm still normal... normal nga ba ako? Haha

I love this article posted by friend.

Tapos na! Ganon lang.. ang boring noh? Hehe..

Good night! Be well.. 

I'm 30 and 1 month old

It's been a month since I started feeling this way, I don't wanna write about how uncontrollably feeling bad I am.. middle life's crisis and the feeling of being not worth of anything??? Have you felt that?  I know this is not the right attitude.. Just give me this time, it will just past-- someone told me that... but i hope it will, so soon....

When you care about few people and  when one of them would just make you feel that you are less important... its truly a sad thing... I don't usually ask and expect too much to anyone, you know I'm not that kind of person, Sometimes all i need is just a second. I always take things all by myself. I don't care much about people who don't care about me, but, now its a different thing.. I guess I'm becoming someone I'm not and I must not... I've realized that it hurts more when some people actually didn't mean to hurt you rather than those who's trying to break you down intentionally -- because you know you wouldn't let them... I know inevitable things should be accepted, I must remember that when people hated you, that's also inevitable and I couldn't do anything about it.

I'm sorry blogger for being negative.. I wish I could stop writing about my annoying drama, but things like this should be just between me and myself, I can't let anyone know, they wont understand and if they could, they will only feel bad, thank you too.. and to myself, I'm sorry too, I'm having a hard time taking care of you this past few days.... I'm really sorry, you'll be just fine... have a nice day! Fake it if you can't!

8sept14

5:38am
 Woke up at 4am pa rin, 5:30 pa yung alarm ko.. whats wrong with me? Haha.. nababaliw na ata ako. Haha...

Good morning!!!

7:44am
At office and I'm late... so ironic that I'm already awake at 4am but I still can't make it early to work, pinipilit ko kase talagang matulog ulit.. haha... I feel like I'm extra unpretty today, mukha nanaman akong zombie, at yung mga pimples o naghihimagsik nanaman..... haha... I'm feeling down, baka effect lang to ng Monday Morning sickness ko, but I must not show anyone how feeling  bad I am deep inside, dapat ako lang makaramdam non.. haha.. so I tried to greet everyone today in a cheerful tone, plastic ba?? Haha. I'll try to smile a lot... okay lang ako!(oo, tama yan, lokohin mo rin sarili mo.. haha).


10:52am

Dumudugo utak ko sa isang to... ayaw kong gawin! Kelangan ba  talaga balikan ko pa yung sept 2009????? Errr... haha.. ayoko! Haha

5:11pm

I can go home now... Lee is absent... Marj is not replying yet if she wants to see me, Margaux might be on board  on a plane by now, she said she wants to see  me... but what time is it now???

5:51pm
Alone in Landmark.. waiting for someone I don't know who , or if he/she will be coming... si margaux na lang pag asa ko kaso anong oras pa yun.. haha... Bat ganon? That moment na kailangan mo ng kausap saka wala sila.. haha... hmmm... makapagdinner na nga... hayst, I never been this tired of this place.. i mean mas grabe ngayon... nagsasayang nanaman ng panahon. Haha... I waited and been waiting for nothing..

6:57pm

So Maragaux couldn't make it now.. so I better be going home... I'm thinking of going to National Book store.. pero tinatamad ako.. hahaha.. ang sipag kong gawin to noh?? Minsan ayaw ko na rin magsulat, para kaseng ang O.A... if my other friends will know this, maiirita sila sa akin.. ako rin naman naiirita sa sarili ko, sila pa kaya? Haha... yung mga sentiments ko sa buhay walang kwenta.. samantala yung iba ang bigat ng pinagdadaanan.. nakakainis talaga ako.... sobrang sa sarili ko na ako naiinis. Haha

8:00pm

Just got home.. look, the moon is a beauty and so creepy too.. took that picture while I was on my way here upstairs..

9:07pm
At inaaway pa ako ni margaux, hindi ba nya alam na may pinagdadaan ako?? Hahaha! Di nga pala ako dapat mandamay... okay, Signing off!! Good night.. I hope I can sleep well.. and with this prayer again.

"GOD, GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE, THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN, AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE"

7Sept14

I'm trying to sleep late so I wont be able to wake up at 4am... thats too early for me.. anyway, i've been really idle today... its like I just stayed in my bed the whole day... forgive me, spare me this day.. haha

Good night now... I wish I could sleep well. :)

Quotes of the Day

Reading a lot of blogs or quotes are my diversion when I'm upset or bored... it helps me realize that I'm not the only one.. Here are my favorites, random and might contradict each other.

Though I wanted this, someone will always pull you down. And i must not let them.

Yep! That's why I love the sky!

Sometimes, someone to talk to is enough. I thank my few good friends.

Sad! But I don't need to be saved. 

Maybe! 

Damn why???!

I told you it's okay..  when you couldn't stop yourself, just let it be... sometimes I was more mad at my self rather than the person involve because I couldn't control myself... anyway, you'll be tired before you know it.. 

So true!! I'm just fooling my self believing there has to be reason from their silence. I should have realized that long time ago... the truth is you don't  mean a thing to them, they're just too coward to tell you.. haha..does it hurts? bitter?! I know.. 

Fine...

Some things really takes time...  if you can't work it out... just wait patiently.

This one sucks but it hits me somehow.

Exactly... why can't others realize this.. or maybe I'm just deaf, yah I think, I wasn't listening.. haha

I wish I could.haha

Sorry for the f word.. but i'm just wondering why some people say things they don't mean... or maybe they were just joking, I'm just so slow to know.. haha... it makes me think if I'd  ever say things I didn't mean to anyone to deserve this.

Some say.. no regrets, just lessons. Honestly, I have so much regrets in my life but I don't really think about it... I would regret about the things I've said or I have not... but if things had made me happy for just a short moment in time, I never regret that.

This one just made me laugh.. reading the first two made me feel relieved but reading the 3rd one , it made me say like.. o, I'm more critical! Hahaha...

Revenge for what?

I love this.. lets just be grateful.

??????

Am I amazing??? Haha

You know how much I love the rain.

So I'm still strong

I think I was loved and have loved this way.

Never play with anyone's mind.

:)

I must absorb this.

I will.

So help me God. (Forgive me for the foul words).