Last Day Of October

How's your day? Mine is... (who cares about it anyway?? but I'm still saying how.. those who will care will get in  here anyway.. hehe.. dami kong intro.

So, my day went well .. its not really worth blogging but it was fine... and I'm writing it still.

It's Saturday.. and it shouldn't be supposed to be a busy day at work.. but I got busy..  Yesterday, our close out report was presented.. that means our project is truly completed.. but my office table is still a mess.. I have so much to do pa rin.. and I'll be transferred to other project soon... and honestly, I don't like it there..hehe.. (I know, that's not the attitude!)

Went out 4pm... stayed at National Bookstore, read books.

Bought a gift at Toys R Us for my friend's son who's celebrating his birthday today.

6pm.. at Giligan's.. dinner with friends and with the birthday boy.

After our dinner,  videoke time at timezone..

10:40pm. Home..

Dull day?? Yeah, maybe to some.. but I was okay..

It may never be as bright as others, but I had fun.

I may not be at the place I wish I can be right now, but I was okay.. maybe someday I could.

I may not be with all the people I wish I can be with, but I'm enduring it.. I still have few good friends here..

I may not bring smiles to other coz I know I'm terrible in pleasing people but that look from this young boy was rewarding when we gave him our gifts..

I may not be a good blogger as others do, but I just love writing this... it may not make sense.. but I don't really mind..

And I may not be getting everything I want, my life isn't perfect but I still don't have the right to be ungrateful..

GOOD NIGHT!

30th of October

Basta yan. Tapos namimiss na namin si Lee... Too tired to tell my story today... good night!

29Oct15

Yap! Let me start this blog with my annoying me! Hehe.. I took this selfless selfie during the lunch break, just dared myself to look at myself when I'm haggard... (coz usually, I hate looking at myself when I'm exhausted, kase ang pangit ko lalo.. haha)...

I went to PP3 again to to present the close out report... this time tuloy na report nila tomorrow... Then I went back to Primea after my PM and Am checked the report...  you know how I hated being there in PP3... and next week I'll be reporting there na twice a week... errrrrr.... ayoko!!!! But I have to, tapos na Primea e... My PM said, ayaw daw nyang nalulungkot ako sa Primea kaya lumipat na raw ako.... weh?? naku, kung sa PP3 lang, gusto ko na lang maging malungkot mag-isa sa Primea.,gusto ko ng tahimik. haha..

Anyway, I stayed up to almost 8pm at the office...  had to do some additional slides on my powerpoint presentation as commented by my bosses... then Mac arrived.. libre ko raw sya.. haha.. madali lang naman akong kausap e, haha.. fine.. at least may kasabay akong lumabas.. had some coffee at starbucks... konteng chikabells... pampastressed out lang.... tapos.. tapos na.

I hope wala masyadong problema yung first ever close out report ko bukas... anyway, di naman ako magppresent non.. hehe.. Good luck na lang sa kanila..

Antok much na! GOOD NIGHT!

Glenn Can't Die!

12:40pm
No!! He can't die.. hindi pwede!! Di na ako manunuod pag ala na talaga sya... (si Daryl pa pala, I still have reason to watch).. pero di pa rin pwede... oh my Glenn!!! You can't die.. haha.. as if I can do something about it.. Just done watching it ..  my boss who happens to be here in right timing (hindi ba wrong timing?) was watching it with me... he said, buhay pa raw yun.. tingin ko rin.. sana nga...

3:07pm
Glad my boss just left, he was talking about Walking Dead and Game of Thrones... like he was doing flashbacks thing.... di ako makapagconcentrate magwork.

3:25pm
Ang saya ko!! Ngayong moment lang.. as in ngayon mismo.. mamaya diko na alam.. hehe

5:55pm

Look who's here!!

10:49pm
She fetched me in our site office because she couldn't wait at Glorietta alone.... (arte din)...sabi ko magpicture kami kase amused na amused sya sa office namin.... tuwang tuwa rin sya dun sa mga pictures sa wall namin... parang reminiscing the past lang...  then we had dinner... and I bought chocolate cake...  which i think I needed the most... stressed pa rin ako eh..

Anyway, back to Glenn! I couldn't take it if he dies.. lahat na lang ng gusto ko nadedeads... hehe.

So Glenn, no rest in peace for you coz I can't let you die.. di maari!!! Di ako magmomove on! :)

Good night!

26Oct15

Today:  I arrived at office with my messy table welcoming me...  my table was like being devastated by a hurricane... chos! Parang kasing gulo lang ng isip ko... haha... I want it organized, kinukulang lang talaga sa oras... naku, hindi rin.. kung organized talaga ako, may paraan.. hehe.. ewan, baka things works for me when everything is a mess... haha... my apology. Arte ko!.. di naayon.. 

Anyway, look at the picture below.. san ka pa?! Ako na yung prepared by, evaluated by, checked by, kulang na lang pati approved by! Hehe.. pwede naman yun.

Antok much na.. sensya na kung laging alang sense yung post ko recently...  

Good night!

Absent for Aldub????

I didn't report to work today....because I'm feeling really tired!!! I deserved it naman diba...? But as what I am always saying, I am having a hard time in making excuses, valid ba yung pagod ka lang?... At kelangan ko pa ng magtotolerate sa aken... so, I got this.

Then I told my Project Manager that I can't go to work because I'm not feeling better then she said yes.. Did I convince her??

Hours later, she texted me... with the rest of the team:

Yes, they even edited a picture... haha...

And now everyone is like.....!!

I should have gone to Philippine Arena na lang talaga.. haha... swear, I wasn't considering the Aldub's Tamang Panahon in deciding not to go to work today, nagkataon lang talaga.. maniwala ka! Haha.. no denying, I'm a fan.. pero di naman ako aabsent para dun lang..

syempre, since I was home.. I enjoyed watching na rin!... oo sa bahay lang at hindi sa Philippine Arena.. hehe...

I'm hungry now... nakalimutan ko pa atang kumain ng kanin.. hehe

10:44pm
This! Hayst.. :) .. hehe.. sorry naman... If my sister would know this.. she will tease me nanaman.. ang baduy baduy ko raw... haha..

Good night!

23 Oct 15

7:30 pm
At National Book Store, waiting for Mac... i should have gone straight home a while ago because I'm sooooo drop dead tired... I can feel my eyes running dry but Mac called me.... I thought he wouldn't come... we planned of meeting today because he owe me  a treat... but I was thinking he would cancel it, kase they were in the office kaninang lunch... (wala naman ako).... so I waited there at NBS.. tagal din nya ah.. nakakarami na ako ng natapos basahing libro (children's books.. hehe)..

Then he asked me to accompany him around Glorietta, he's looking for something to buy, ... kaya kahit antok na antok ako, tired much na ako, ... kahit parang walking dead na akong naglalakad.. sinamahan ko na rin.. minsan na lang naman kami magkita, that's what friends are for naman diba??

9:35pm
Home! Finally, si Lee nagparamdam  na!! Ang haba ng dialogue.. hehe.. and he sent me these pictures...

 thanks to him, just glad to see the places my friends are seeing kahit sa pictures lang.. hehe.. I may never get to Qatar, pero parang nakapunta na rin. Chos!

10:26pm
Before I sleep.. Music.. and a quote I saw on fb.. haha.. tawa ako ng tawa.

Good night!

22Oct 15

Had a rough today...  the draft for the close out  report was fine... pero naloka muna ako before I brought it to our area manager sa kabilang project... then after I presented and got some comments for few editing.. nalaman kong postponed pala yung cost reporting tomorrow... wahhh! I went crazy and stressed out  sa report na yan at nakalimutan ko pa palang mag time out kagabi.. but the good thing is, may time pa akong ayusin yung mga konting revisions..

Kaso may  bad thing din... meeting at the head office nanaman bukas.. haysttt! Yes na!  i hate it there pero yes na (ang dami ko namang hate) Hehe..

Anyway.. while I was at PP3 kanina... had the chance to see jay r, mela and Mac... pati na rin sina May, Glenda, Paulo at Kuya Mervs...

Ayun, during lunch break... I was at Jay r's area with Mela talking about this and that....  at least, kahit ayaw ko dun sa Project nila... it's a relief din na andun sila... I miss them, we're talking about Lee, kumusta na nga kaya yun.. ? we missed him... I miss aldub too (haha.. maisingit lang), di na ako nakakanuod... dami ko tuloy namimiss...I gone too busy nakakalimutan kong ang dami ko palang namimiss..  :(

Anyway..... head office tomorrow.. wrong timing naman.. birthday pa naman ni sir monty.. makikikain sana ako.. haha.. I heard kase that his choices of foods are no pork dahil sa aken.. tas wala pala ako....  napipikon na ako sa mga meeting meeting na yan ah... hehe.. I need a break... I need to go there and there.. ewan saan.. basta malayo... basta malayo sa work... chos lang!

This.. before I sleep.

Good night!

21st of October

12:30pm
Watching this.... recommended by Maam Anna (o diba?? Hehe)... diko alam kung matatawa ako... pero it make sense... galing ah!

8:10pm
With marj, para maiba naman yung kasama ko haha

10:00pm
Busy day today but i still managed to talk to this people...

I saw this book at NBS and it intrigued me... sabi ko kay madam.. regaluhan nya ako non.. ahaha..  wala lang.. baka lang gusto nya akong regaluhan , di na sya kelangan mag isip ano bibigay saken. Haha

11:20pm
Wala namang special today... but I had a happy busy day... wala naman ding dahilan bat happy.... ewan... minsan ganon lang yun.. I started it with a positive mind and ended it that way too... kahit sobrang busy pa... usually, low bat na ako nyan in the afternoon.. but I was still able to kid around with marj kanina... sana okay rin bukas... kahit pa pupunta akong PP3 to present my close out report na hindi pa tapos by now... hehe... I don't like it there.... yes  na.. I don't want to ruin my mood now...

Good night! Sleep well..

20th of October

10:41pm --- (correction, a.m. to! )

errrr.. have you felt that moment na dapat busy ka? kalat ng table mo? ang daming files sa pc mo ang nakaopen, kulang na lang bumigay na pc mo?, ang daming pumapasok sa office mo na kelangan to, kelangan yan, tas sasagutin mo ng busy ako! wag nyo ko ginugulo pero bibigay mo rin pala kelangan nila?, yung feeling na di mo alam ano uunahahin? may biglang tatawag? biglang magviviber project manager mo, tatanungin ka ng, "ready na presentation mo for close out"???, yung mga ganon???? yung gantong moment mismo? tapos may may gumugulo pa sa isip mo, mga wala naman kwentang bagay bagay.. haha... tapos tutulala ka na lang kase di mo na alam ang gagawin.. tas magbablog na lang bigla.. tas matatawa ka na lang kase busy sana ako pero eto ako... eto ako! parang baliw... ayun lang, back to work..

8:18pm
Ayala triangle.. katatapos lang magdinner with madam.. ayun kausap yung anak sa phone...  nagjog kase sya.. umaasa pa rin sya na pumayat sya.. hehe.. sana nga pumayat na sya... late na ako umalis ng office.. nagpang abot pa kami ni Mac... sinisingil ko sa libre nya saken... tas magpapalibre din yun.. di talaga nagpapagulang saken yun.. hehe..

9:00pm

I'm home na.. a photo I took kanina sa Triangle
Ako: ai, ang labo
Marj: okay lang yan, para di halatang mataba ako.
Ako: fine

Anyway, surprisingly! Kahit stressed na stressed ako...busy much ako.. kahit inaabot nanaman ako ng past 6pm sa office ... kahit parang zombie nanaman ako... ayos lang... kahit nagnonose bleed na ako sa close out report na yan.. ayos lang din.... kahit wala ng makausap sa office.. ayos lang din... basta ayos lang ako ngayong araw na to...  kaw, ayos ka ba??? Hehe...naku.. yung tribute ko kay lee, di ko pa nabibigay sa kanya...  bibigay ko pa ba? Alam nanaman nya yun.

11:02pm
About to sleep na..pero parang gusto kong mag videoke..ahaha... chos lang.

Good night!

Till we meet again, Lee!

Tribute to Lee:

It's not that I am dramatic... (or fine, maybe I am).. it just sooo me to make this kind of tribute blah blah to someone who leaves.. it's not like we're not able to see each other again (or yes, there's a chance not to see him ever again...).. but I'm making this blog because I'm awesome doing this sort.. haha!

Good luck Lee... I won't say goodbye... I'd rather say "see you tom (tomorrow)".. the line we used to say everytime we part ways pag nagkikita tayo.. though we're not planning to see each other naman talaga the following day... just our way to say that we will be seeing each other anytime.. but it will be different now.. we may no longer do following:

*dinner (sa mamahalin.. haha)
*receive random calls from  you kahit office hours...regarding kahit ano lang.
*watched people and be "mean", when we looked at each other, alam na.. we have the same thinking.. pero bawas bawasan na natin ha... some people may deserved our mocking (based on what we see).. but we don't really know them.
*laugh out loud
*bully margaux.. hehe
*watched movies... --my choices, tapos sisisihin nyo ako after the movie pag di nyo nagustuhan.
*may not hear your stories.. yung tipong kilala ko na rin halos lahat ng officemates mo sa kabilang project sa kadadaldal mo.
*your entry to my "note to self" notebook, suki ka dun eh!
*our charot fight texts.. yung mga tipong, "okay lets forget each other na".. haha
*and much much much more.........

Yes, I'm just so used to your presence...pero ganon talaga... it may be sad parting ways but its for your brighter future naman...we are really happy for you, you're just getting what's meant for you... hindi ka naman masyado nag effort e.. tapos biglang anjan na.. God worked it out for you.

Yun nga,,, I'm thankful I had met you.. you're not perfect (and so do I)... at aminin na natin.. many misunderstood you, many had criticized you... I do too.. haha.. sabi ko nga, countless are the times that I was annoyed by you too... I had friends, mostly nice... pero ikaw??? you are dangerously nice? haha... but I learned to handle that... there's always good things about you.. and I don't really mind the bad side, maybe that darker side of you was out powered by how you make your real friends laugh and supported by you .. Sometimes I'm being surprised with your advises, minsan kase feeling ko alam ko lahat ng dapat malaman, na diko na kelangan makinig pa sa iba.... but you have different eye opening perceptions too...  thanks to that!

Thanks for the friendship Lee.. you will be missed... you're officially one of those people  worth remembering.. charot! Heheh...I still look forward seeing you again.. kahit saan pa man ako mapunta.. sabi mo lilibre mo pamasahe ko.. haha..

God bless you there.. take a lot of ingats!

19Oct15

5:39am
I can feel my heart breaking.. errr. It's my Monday Morning sickness...  I'll get through this. So help me God.

Good night!

Good luck lee.. God bless you.

Good night!

Wearing an old worn out shoes.....

7:30am
Eating pancit canton for breakfast... a note on my table.. a selfie (i think im getting thin again, nasstressed kase ako!)... and I'm wearing my worn out chucks (hi-cut converse)!... this is my oldest pair that's still on my shoe rack, I should have given up on this long time ago... but I'm still keeping it.. see? I'm still wearing it...

1:20pm
Oh! I just woke up.. my first time to over slept during lunch break. I must be tired.. really.

8:25pm
I'm home.. with an annoying selfie from yours truly! Haha.. sorry naman.

9:45pm
To give justice on the title of this blog.... say hi to my old shoes! I'm such a keeper you know...  hehe

11:13pm
Got so much to say but i'm too sleepy as well.

Good night. Sleep.well...

13th of October

9:34 am
Meeting..  meeting...  where are they???

3:45pm
Why o why? Tinatamad ako. Inaantok ako.

5:19pm
Still at the office, at ayaw ko pa umuwi.. I wanna go home but not in our boarding house, in our real home... I'm starting to feel outcast here... errr... I think this is pointless.. ehehe... ano ba yan.. sometimes, I really wish I could talk to someone who doesn't know me.. yung ganong kaartehan.. sasabihin ko lahat lahat, kahit ano! ehehe.. tapos we'll just part ways right after, yung tipong he/she will just keep and seal my thoughts  with him/her without knowing who really  I am, not even my name.... yung feelings and thoughts ko lang.. para kahit isipin nyang baliw ako.. at least once lang nya ako makikita.. haha!... weird ko noh?? Hehe.. di ko naman pwedeng gawin yun... baka mamamatay tao pala yung makakausap ko. Haha!

6:55pm
While waiting for my order.. read this.

It's inspiring.. so when you feel like giving up.. read that!.. it's not that I'm barely breathing right now... hehe.. medyo maybe.. kase paulit ulit na lang yung problema ko.. diko alam kung ano.. hehe.. i'm just confused.. as ever.. okay lang ako.. pag di ko nasusulat to.. dun kana magworry.. that's when.. I'm not okay.. arte much lang... hehe

8:55pm
Home! And I think I deserved this pizza.. all for myself.. haha

Nakakairita noh? Hehe.. pwede namang yung pizza lang kunan.. bakit pati yung haggard kong pagmumukha?.. hehe

Today's Dinah's birthday... she's one of the few good friends I've met... I missed our conversation where bullying one another is our common language.. and all I could give her on her birthday is this collage I made.

10:40pm
Anyway, remember Lee? He will be leaving for abroad this weekend... I'm just really happy for him, it's something he wanted and he needed... but I feel sad for myself...but I can't be selfish... I must not feel bad, I must be happy for whatever my friends are getting.. even if its hard, I must endure it... it's for their own good.. he met me last night thinking he might not be able to show up before he leaves... touched naman ako dun.. hehe... although plan pa namin magkita kita this week with the rest of our friends... eh pero dipa sure... kaya nagpakita na raw sya kahapon... baka di na kami magkita.. mamimiss ko yun.. kahit salbahe pa sya, kaya mean sya saken minsan... kahit yung iba ayaw sa kanya, pero may mga good side naman yun.. dahil kung wala.. hinding hindi ko sya kakaibiganin.. sabi ko naman eh..  i don't look only at the bad side of a person.. dahil ganon din naman ako.. maraming kasamaang taglay. Haha!.. isipin mo na lang kung ikaw, puro kasamaan mo nakikita nila sayo... diba???? Yung iba nga kala mo puro kabaitan ang taglay na pinapakita pero kung makapanakit ng kapwa.. wagas.. tagos! ehehe.. so lets not judge people... sorry kung nakakapagjudge din ako minsan... naku.. malulungkot na talaga ako... pero kaya ko to!

11:45pm
So late now. GOOD NIGHT. SLEEP WELL.

Random Thoughts on the 11th of October

7:41am

Woke up this morning and I thought its not Sunday.. and when I realized it is, I slept back..

Now, I woke up again thinking of getting myself out of here (this place)... I don't wanna think harshly for myself but sometimes I just can't help it.. I honestly don't know what to do about my job, our project is almost completed and anytime soon, I'll be transferred to another project, and I don't want it there (the possible new project for me) ..really! I've been there once, because our area manager asked me to assist their commercial department to work on the change orders proposal... I felt really bad that day because I didn't know that I'll be doing that, I mean, I thought we'll be having meeting only, I feel betrayed (chos lang! Pero medyo) and unprepared! I stayed there the whole day trying to understand the revisions on their structural plans... eerr... then going home from that place is nerve wracking!! You'll get stressed more.. haha

Anyway, if i'll quit my job, what will I do?? I've got two options for my self.. go home!!! If I'll do that, would there be a job waiting for me there?? Second option, work abroad! It maybe tough working there but maybe I'll get paid sufficiently it would sustain my dream of travelling here and there.. at least I know now whats one of the things that would make me happy!! Get to places I never been... but .. (yes, somebody should slap my face for my unending "buts").... I think I'm too old now!!! Errrrrrr... why age matters to me?? I hate me for that.

Anyway, these past few days, I'm feeling really tired! And I don't know why am I not getting tired of feeling that way... I was  having self reflections, why am I doing it??

I believe that it's okay to feel tired when you are working to get something you wished for,

That it's okay to feel exhausted when you know at the end you'll get paid enough to get what you want,

That it's fine to get you heart broken for right reasons....

So, I'm asking myself now... am I tiring myself for something worth my sweat, my tears, my heart aches, my dull boring days, my sleepless nights (just lack of sleeps), my haggard face, stuffs like that.. was it worth it???

I don't know. All I know now is that I'm hungry.. I must take myself out of my bed now to cut my drama.

9:46pm
I've been a little feeling young at heart today for enjoying watching some for-the-kids movies...  I watched GMA's featured movie this morning, Nanny Mcphee... and watched Pan at Robinsons Cinema just this afternoon--... I love those both.

I had foot spa and pedicure too.. chos! Haha

and now playing on this pic...

I'm absolutely feeling not normal right now.. haha.. wait,  need to finish another movie on my phone...

11:26pm
It's late. I don't wanna sleep yet.. I hope you could talk to me.. sometimes I'm thankful that you just listen to me, I couldn't hear any violent reaction from you, when you should... but sometimes, I wish you could talk to me.. but what can I do, you're just my blogger account...

Anyway, aside from wanting myself in other place right now, I wish I could do something I couldn't (magulo ba?).. but I really wish I could but I just can't.. and maybe it wont matter anyway, so just be it. :(

Lets all have a good night sleep now.. I just had my ordinary weekend, I got confused and still confused but it was fine, I'm okay,  .. and  I just hope someone somewhere too had a great day today...

Sleep well.

7th of October

5:10am
Good morning NAIA!.. just about to leave, I  accompanied my mom here for her flight home later.... I'll be heading to office now but its too early... so I stopped by here at the airport lobby...

I'm feeling like a zombie, I think I only have an hour sleep.. I had a whole day meeting yesterday then fetched my mom in the airport in the evening, she slept over in our boarding house then woke up around past 3 or should I say I had not slept.

Gotta take the airport loop bus now.... I could have take the yellow taxi but I don't wanna be the earliest bird in the office.

6:10am
Office! Nakakapagod palang maglakad from MRT Ayala to here...on my way here, nakasalubong ko si Mac at Glenda, they're on their way to other project, may lagnat daw ba ako at ang aga ko?? Hehe... gotta have my breakfast na.

And yey! I've got new bills from my mom.

5th of October

7:57am
It's going to be a busy day... but let music accompany me.. and start it with this, my newly found song...lets have a busy nice day!

 10:57pm
Tired much! But I'm feeling great.. chos!

Good night! Sleep well...

4th of October

My funny face.. delicious food  cooked by my super friend, the silly talks, ...cake, tong-its,  frappe.. the rain.. music.. watched horror movie (pay the.ghost), aldub, sleep, ---that defines my weekend... and I think I haven't enough of this day... I don't want to yet but got to sleep now.

Good night.... :)

3rd of October

Recap of yesterday's activity:


Busy in the morning and had to attend a meeting in the afternoon.

Before going to DCC, I asked the cost engineer  sa kalapit na project na daanan ako sa site namin at makikisabay ako... Our area manager arrived at site before lunch and will attend the same meeting too..

FBB: Ash tara na.
Me: Ai, nasabihan ko na po yung kabilang project na daanan ako.
FBB: eh, di sabihan mong dumating ako, sa aken ka na sasabay.
ME: (naghahanap pa ng palusot).. sa kanila na ako sasabay.. mas masaya sila kasabay.. lol

Then there goes the meeting... sumakit ulo ko.

After the meeting, I headed to Gateway to meet Lee, Marj and Margaux... I was at MRT Ayala when Mac called me, he wanted to meet me sana kaso papunta na nga ako kina lee... gusto ko rin naman sana imeet si Mac, namimiss ko na rin yun.. pero nammiss ko na rin sina Lee, Teh at Madam.. first come first serve na lang..  chos!

Then at the MRT... rush hour.. I hated it kaso, naiinip na yung mga naghihintay saken..  so there I make sapalaran.. parang mamatay ako sa sisiksikan.. Thank God, I'm still alive...

Tapos yun na.. we had dinner at Kabab Cubao.. chickaness... Lee had a good news, I was happy for him... kung ano man yun, secret daw muna. Hehe

Then we went home.. Madam and I took the bus.
 While on the bus.
Me: Kakausapin mo ba ako?
Marj: Bakit?
Me: Magheheadset ako.
Marj: (laughing).. ano? Nakakatakot ka na man (because I was serious asking her kung kakausapin ba nya ako).. wag kana maghead set, hindi to provincial bus.
Me: Magsosound trip lang!! E
Marj: Wag kana magheadset! Mag usap tayo.

TAPOS NA FOR THAT DAY.

Today:

Feeling sick in the morning..then na-busy ako sa work, nakalimutan kong parang magkakasakit ako..

In the afternoon, went to cubao to meet belle, my highschool friend... who happens to be just living one block away from Margaux... so I have them introduced to one another..  and as usual, dahil gagabihin na ako para umuwi, makikitulog nanaman ako.. quota na talaga ako dito.. ang sarap din kase ng fried chicken ni teh.. haha!